Here’s such a typical employer/employee conversation. Never caring about YOUR time (school doesn’t either). No understanding of anxiety, what-so-ever. People have put me off like this my whole life, not understanding or giving a fu(k about rumination. “Don’t worry about it” means they’re going to put me on the worst shifts and they don’t want me to push back or complain about that. They did, in fact, have me on for too many hours, and for Fridays which I specifically said I didn’t want. Exactly what I had been worried about. And I had to resign. So then they were short TWO people. . .
Dr: Not sure. Likely Lots though. And it will include Thursdays and Fridays likely. Short time. Not permanent. Likely have to put you on a regular schedule and have everyone clean rather than you coming in at 5:30 AM.
Me: I cant do all day Friday. I would rather meet 1:1 to discuss a compromised sched. Its tricky with my classes. yeah the cleaning and early will have to go I think. I can trade sat for tues. Wnd wed am for thurs
Dr. Ok We can talk and have a better idea
Me: My thoughts in the pic 9attached) b/c now I’m going to worry and stress till we talk
Dr: Can’t read that at all. everyone here is stressed to so just give me times that You CANNOT WORK. Then times that you want to work and we will see. If between you, M, and K we can fill in all the times. Then we will have to schedule light when we cant fill the time in.
Me: I cant work all day Friday I have class mw nevermind I think you’ll have to see it in writing to understand my class commitments. Not all day fri tho.
Dr. Please try and relax. I have a lot of planning to do and shuffling of people. I realize you have school and that is a have to, not a want to what I am asking for is times you have off and then we will try to give you times you want to have off if we can fit in it
Me: You cant meet? Ok class mw 9:30-11:15, t/r 11:30-1:30 3 bus hrs fri for independent study. I can give you 35% more than I already am without hurting my hard-fought 4.0 gpa
Dr: Oy vey. I will try to get this figured out by next week.
Me: I stayed up all night and worked it out and fair % of increased hr to cover rj time and it might save you a lot of time if you looked at my draft sched. Did you see the rest of my qs? can I post on cl?
Dr: If I had known you’re going to be so worried I probably wouldn’t of (SIC) brought this up to you so soon.
No about cl
No about many and no about vici mae
We wont give you any more than 35 hrs
That will be a must and not a want?
So it is short term so get some sleep little energizer bunny
Me: I worked out the numbers: I have 12 wk left in the semester in that time exams, 13 labs and assignments, 15 observations and those papers and 36 hr ind study. Hipaa reg transcriptions.
Dr: Ok we will ask no more of you
Me: What’s that mean?
D; stop. it means you’re stressing over something that you don’t have to stress about. We will work it out.
Me: I thought you were firing me over text 😦 I just worry bc this is the type of scene that hurt my undergrad grp and got me in this position. I cant start over is all. thank you for at least talking to me
Dr: Okay that kind of made me laugh. there is no way I would fire you over a text.
That is like breaking up with someone over text. Who does that kind of shit?
Me: Well, shit-heads. I never know what to expect out of ppl tho.
Dr: Are you calling me a potential shithead? Ok get back to your day and we will work it all out.
me: Like my dad says can’t trust nobody but yourself. But he’s paranoid and thinks he’s funny
-There are 12 weeks left in the semester:
**6 exams
**13 audiometry labs and associated assignments left to turn in
**an intervention packet
**36 hr of language transcription
**2 physical clinic observations and associated assignments
**8 MCT observations (30-60 min each)
**5 observation sheets due
**11 textbook chapters to read (this is no longer a feasible endeavor)
Day:
I wake up at 4AM and sleep at 7:30PM
**Treadmill takes the first half hr of each day, 7 days a week
**I have 1.5-2 hours of physical class 4 days a week
**takes 1 hour 4 days a week to make study materials
Week:
**must do 3 hours of transcription/wk *13
**probably 3 total hours to complete the lab & assignment/wk
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