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Lover (2019) by Taylor Swift Song Ranking

21 Feb

27.8% Awesome; 27.8% Good; 27.8% OK; 11.1% Meh; 5.6% Skip out of 18

5 Awesome

I Forgot that You Existed

Lover

The Man

Paper Rings

You Need to Calm Down

The first half of the ERA is so Me! The latter half, with the dark colors and over-sized men’s wear stuff is decidedly NOT my aesthetic. Also, the era felt interrupted and incomplete with the masters, a possible Kaylor break-up, and Covid-19. This album? Overall, my gripe is that it’s over-produced. Too much is going on and it’s as if someone is playing with all the new sounds, trying everything available. I think it would be better if the production was designed around the song. But there’s a lot of catchy hooks here, and lyrics working double-duty.

5 Good

Cruel Summer

Death by a Thousand Cuts

Me (originally a skip, but grew on me & high notes)

Afterglow

Daylight

5 OK

I Think He Knows

Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince

London Boy

False God

Cornelia Street (who’s story is this?)

2 Meh

The Archer

It’s Nice to Have a Friend

1 Skip

Soon You’ll Get Better (nice, but too depressing)

nomads, Indians, and saints (1990) Song Ranking

20 Jan

(45.5% awesome, 54.5% good, OK, meh, skip out of 11 

and an interview and 2 live bonus tracks)

5 AWESOME

hammer and a nail

1,2,3

watershed

hand me downs

pushing the needle too far

This was the first IG album I ever heard, and it really hit me hard. I didn’t know I was gay at the time I heard this, but it impacted me hugely anyway. When I say I didn’t know–I truly had NO inkling. And when I did come out to myself, this album was right there for me, helping me process what was happening. Helping me remember there were bigger things than myself and my sexuality. I love the lyrics, and I appreciate where this album took me.

6 GOOD

welcome me

WORLD FALLS

SOUTHLAND IN THE SPRINGTIME

keeper of my heart

YOU AND ME OF THE 10,000 WARS

girl with the weight of the world in her hands

Indigo Girls

OK/NEUTRAL

MEH

SKIP

This is Me Trying: Analysis of Taylor Swift’s folklore (from larger post)

25 Aug

This is a more digestible portion of my album analysis:

 

Here, I have tried to analyze what and who each track of Folklore is about.  Which is complex because it’s not in a linear order.  Names are obscured.  Facts may be reality or story.  The narrator is unreliable.  And this whole thing is going to be from a Kaylor perspective, because that’s how the songs, and Taylor Swifts catalog as a whole makes the best sense to me.  I’ll show you what I mean.

 

9. This is Me Trying.

Takes place after “The Archer.” In that one it goes, “Combat, I’m ready for combat” like she’s ready for a fight.  This will not be easy.  She continues, “I say I don’t want that, but what if I do?” This speaks of hesitation.  Taylor fears this announcement.  But also, she wants it.  She’s preparing.  The next line is, “Cause cruelty wins in the movies.” And I think that is telling how every gay movie ends badly.  The queers don’t get that happy ending, just sadness and tragedy.  The last line in this verse:  “I’ve got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you.”  And she means the fans.  The public.  Taylor Swift is afraid, but wants to come out.  She had many false starts, but she continues to head in the direction.  Think about the Archer’s line, “Help me hold onto you.” and when Taylor sings this song at concerts and says who could leave me, who could stay, you could stay.” And she points at the crowd on the YOU could stay.  This confirms The Archer is addressing the fans.

In this part B of that song, she sings, “I don’t quite know what to say, but I’m here in your doorway.” Taylor is taking to us, her fans. Proof?  “Pouring my heart out to a stranger.” She speaks of trying to come out, but also keep her career. “They told me all of my cages are mental.” It won’t be as scary as she has always feared.  Taylor just has to get out of her head–out of her own way.  She talks about lashing out in past songs. “And my words shoot to kill when I’m mad, I have a lot of regrets about that.”  She’s saying two things here:  1) In telling these stories about break ups with boys, and in laying down Easter eggs as encouragement to analyze her artwork, Taylor has created a monster.  She did it out of fear and anger, but now fans eagerly comb through her songs looking for the real people they might be about.  So now, that she wants to present the more authentic version of herself, it seems like she was disingenuous before.  Which wasn’t her intention.  She is reminding the fans about how much she cares about what we think about her.  2) I think she wants to come out carefully so as not to hurt or anger anyone else, especially anyone who was previously or who is currently in her personal life.

Taylor Swift’s folklore Album Cross-Referenced with Lyrics, Songs, Albums, Events

2 Aug

Oh my goodness.  I became obsessed with this project.  I took every key word I heard in the folklore album and cross-referenced common songs.  Example:  The phrase, “chosen family” is in the song, The 1 and also in the song Peace.  And that probably means something.  It lets you know there is at least one connection between those 2 songs.  And that knowledge will help untie the album, which is layered in meaning (see my other post about that).  Then, I heard words in folklore that referenced Taylor’s past work.  So I looked at 1989, Reputation, and Lover albums and tried to find every instance of common lyrics.  For example, the word, “bleed” is in The 1 and Cardigan and Epiphany in this latest album, but it’s also in the lyric, “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know” from the song Cruel Summer on the Lover album.  It became crazy to try to use quotations, and I might italicize later so the format I used was:

 

-Ignore any capitalization issues, they don’t mean anything.  I am working from home and my work is CAPSlock, so many of these things were jotted while I worked.

-Different color for each folklore song

-folklore songs alphabetized for ease of sort & find

-Title of folklore song bolded and underlined

-the bolded word or phrase of interest with a “-” denoting each new one

-wavy (is that what they’re called?) brackets {showing what other song on folklore contains that word/phrase}

-brackets containing song title, followed by album name then an equals sign “=” with the quoted lyric that is connected

-For many words and phrases in folklore, there are multiple song lyrics that apply from other albums, I have put each with a squiggle (?IDK the term?) to denote each

-I attempted to put pictures that apply to the word/phrase/situation at hand, but WordPress is very heavy and unfriendly for that, so excuse formatting.

-ctrl F was my best friend

 

I think this is the sort of project that is never finished.  For timeliness, I am posting as is, with the intention of adding more, clarifying, and amping it up.

 

 

 

The 1

-never bleed you’re never gonna grow {also Cardigan and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

chosen family {also Peace}

-makin it count 

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I counted days, I counted miles”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “number…who’s counting“]

dream {also Betty and Ephiphany}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-“on some new shit” *drugs?

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord, save me, my drug is my baby”]

films never made {also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

runnin {also Illicit Affairs and Cardigan}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

waking up alone [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “flashbacks waking me up”]

 

 

roarin 20s [“In the roaring twenties they rewrote the rules.. “

A new movie poster of The Laureate starring Laura HaddockDianna Agron Kathy Bates Tom Hughes

latest project from Red Rock Entertainment

The true story of Robert Graves]

 

 

 

August:

-twistin’ in bedsheets [Daylight from Lover = “back & forth from NY, sneakin’ in your bed“]

-get in the car {also Betty and Cardigan and This is Me Trying}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]   

LEVIS {also in Cardigan}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

MEMORY [New Years Day from Reputation = “hold on to the memories“]

-cancel my plans [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = paper cut stains from my paper thin plans]

runnin’ like water {also The One and Illicit affairs and Cardigan} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

summer love {also in Betty and Peace and Seven}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

-bottle of wine

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover “My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust”]

~[False God from Lover = “begging for forgiveness, got the wine for you”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “The wine is cold”]

 

 

Betty:

cobblestones {also in Cardigan}

-couldn’t breathe {also in Madwoman and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

doorstep {also “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “side door” in Exile and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

dream {also Epiphany and The 1}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-in front of your stupid friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Cardigan}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]   

-in the garden

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make all the tables turn, rose garden filled with thorns”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate”]

home {also in Exile and Peace and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

party {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

-kiss me on the porch {also in Cardigan}

summer  {also in August and Peace and Seven}   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every day that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

-only 17 idk anything [I Think He Knows from Lover = “it’s like I’m seventeen, nobody understands”]

 

 

CARDIGAN: 

-DOWNTOWN BARS

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

bleedin {also “bleed” in The 1 and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

BLOOD STAINS {also “bloody” in Tears Ricochet and Exile} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

-kiss in cars {also Betty and August and This is Me Trying}   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

COBBLESTONES {also in Betty}

DRUNK {also Mirrorball}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

FRIEND {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Betty}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-HIGH HEELS {also in Mirrorball}

LEVIS {also in August}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

PORCH {also in Betty}

SCARS {also Hoax}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SMOKE   

~[The Archer from Lover = “room filled with smoke” “the room is on fire, invisible smoke“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “breathed in the smoke“]

-UNDER a STREETLIGHT {also in Betty} [Cornelia Street from Lover = “street lights pointed in an arrowhead, leading us home”]

TRAIN [The Archer from Lover = “jump from the train, I ride off alone”]

RUNNIN’ LIKE WATER {also The One and Illicit affairs and August} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

WEEKENDS

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make the bad guys good for a weekend“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “feels like home stay in bed the whole weekend“]

 

WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG, THEY ASSUME YOU KNOW NOTHING {also in Betty}

 

 

 

black lipstick

~[Taylor wore very dark lipstick to the Met]

~[Reputation album cover features Taylor in black lipstick]

 

tattoo kiss [Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

 

 

 

EPHIPHANY:

BLEEDIN‘ {also “bleed” in The One and Cardigan} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

breathe {also in Betty and Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

DOC {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

dream {also Betty and The 1}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

SLEEP {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax}   

~[Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “sometimes I wonder when you sleep“]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “you ask me for a place to sleep“]

 

 

Exile:

bloody {also in Tears Ricochet and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

CROWN

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “they took the crown but it’s alright”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “like you’re an American queen“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “we all got crowns“]

film {also in The One and “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

HOMELAND {also “home’ in Peace and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

-SIDE-DOOR {also “doorstep” in Betty and “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

TOWN

~[Daylight from Lover = “…stormed out of every single room in this town“]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “in this small town“]

~[False God from Lover = “staring out the window like I’m not your favorite town“]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “would’ve fought the whole town for ya”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “I’ll be there if you’re he toast of the town, babe”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he said, ‘let’s get out of this town‘”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “he keeps the picture of you in his office down town“]

 

KNUCKLES BLOODY {Bad Blood music video = Karlie boxes Taylor}

 

STARIN’ HONEY   

 

 

hoax:

-PULLED ME APART

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “X marks the spot, where we fell apart“]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989] = “we were built to fall apart, then fall back together”]

blue {also in Peace and Invisible String}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]   

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ASH FROM FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

died {also in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

DOOR {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “doorway” in This is Me Trying} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

frozen my ground [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “love had been frozen“]

hero {also Tears Ricochet} [The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

Kingdom

~[Call it What You Want from Reputation = “my castle crumbled overnight” and “they took the crown but it’s alright” “all the drama queens taking swings’]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “and we rule the kingdom inside my room”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your kingdom keys”]

-TWISTED KNIFE   

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you think we’d be fine, still got scars on my back from your knife“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “I brought a knife to a gunfight”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “SUMMERS A KNIFE“]

-WHAT’S THE MOVIE FOR -{also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and The 1 and Exile}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

New York

~[Daylight from Lover = Back and forth from New York (sneakin’ in your bed)”]

~[False God from Lover = I’m New York City]

~[Welcome to New York from 1989 = “Welcome to New York“]

sadness

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “oh, it’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “You make me so happy it turns back to sad“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

scars {also Cardigan}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SCREAMIN {also in screamin’ in Seven and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SLEEPLESS NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]   

SUN {also August and sunshine in Peace}

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “sunshine is gone”]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989 = “when the sun came up, I was lookin’ at you” “when the sun came up, you were lookin’ at me”]

 

 

ILLICIT AFFAIRS:

COLORS I CAN’T SEE W/ANYONE ELSE  [OUT OF THE WOODS from Reputation = “In screaming color“]

DIES {also Peace and Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

-eyes down

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “head down“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = hang your head low“]

DRUG

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord save me, my drug is my baby, I’ll be usin‘ for the rest of my life”]

-A MILLION LITTLE TIMES {also million pieces in Mirrorball}

road

~[All You Had to do was Stay from 1989 = “all I know is that you drove us off the road“]

~[False God from Lover = “They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you’re led by blind faith.”]

~[New Romantics from 1989 = “we’re so young but we’re on the road to ruin”]

~[New Years Day from Reputation = “I can tell it’s going to be a long road“]

~[Style from 1989 = “he can’t keep his wild eyes on the road“]

runnin {also The 1 and Cardigan and August}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

SCREAM {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SECRET {also in Peace}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

                                –STARES   

 

 

 

GREEN

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                                 –TEAL

 

 

INVISIBLE STRING

BLUE {also in Peace and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]   

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

cutting me open

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “waiting for you to cut me to the bone”]

[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “death by a thousand cuts“]

[So It Goes from Reputation = “cut me into pieces”]

-dive bar

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

gold   

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “golden like daylight”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

~[End Game from Reputation = “Your body is gold“]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “gold cage, hostage to my feeling”]

HEAVEN {and Tears Richchet}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “unbreakable heaven“]

~[False God from Lover = “I know heaven’s a thing I go there when you touch me, honey…”]

hell {also in Peace and Tears Richchet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

-PURPLE PINK SKY [It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “light pink sky“]

 

 

3 year trip

                                                                                                      -BAD BLOOD   

 

 

 -TEAL    -GREEN   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lakes:

TBA

 

 

The Last Great American Dynesty:

-bitch pack friends (from the city) {also in Betty and Peace and Cardigan and Betty}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-card games W/DOTTIE   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “back when we were card sharks, playing games“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “I wanna be your end game” “I’ve passed days without fun, this end game is the one”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your little games“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “play stupid games, win stupid prizes”]

~[…Ready for it from Reputation = “Let the games begin”]

DOCTOR {also Epiphany} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

madwoman {also in Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

parties {also in Betty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

 

-fill the pool with champagne [This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “jumping to the pool from the balcony”]

WEDDING [Lover from Lover = wedding imagery]

 

 

 

STL= where Karlie Kloss is from

 

 

 

MADWOMAN:

BREATHE {also in Betty and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

fire {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

-breathe flames

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “it’s gonna be forever, or it’s gonna go down in flames“]

~[I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I can feel the flames on my skin”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out”]

~[Style from 1989 = “cound end in burning flames or paradise”]

dead {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]

drive

~[I Think He Knows from Lover “we can follow the sparks, I’ll drive“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I want to drive away with you”]

HUNTING [I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run”]   

kill

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “killing me slow, out the window” “what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more”]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “I dress to kill my time”]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “I though that it would kill me, but it didn’t”]

madwoman {also in The Last Great American Dynasty}

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

WITCHES [I did something bad from Reputation = “they’re burning all the witches, even if you aren’t one”]

 

-YACHT = Karlie Kloss’ 2nd (fake) wedding was on a yacht?    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

mirrorball:

clowns {also in Peace}

drunk {also Cardigan}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

-highest heels {also Cardigan}

million pieces {also million little times in Illicit Affairs}

 

 

PEACE:

DISTRACTING BEEPING BACKGROUND MUSIC—DOES IT SYMBOLIZE SOMETHING?

 

BLUE {also in Invisible String and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ROBBERS TO THE CLOWNS TO THE WEST {also in Mirrorball}

DEVIL IN THE DETAILS   

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes” “he looks so pretty like a devil“]

[dancing w/our hands tied from Reputation = “looked up grinnin like a devil“]

DIE {also Hoax and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

dying {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

fire {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Betty and Cardigan}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

ghostly {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Tears Ricochet} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL {also in Invisible String and Tears Ricochet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Tears Ricochet}

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

secret {also in Illicit Affairs}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Tears Ricochet} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Tears Ricochet}

 

family I chose {also The 1}

 

 

Seven:

folksongs {folklore is album title}

haunted {also in Tears Riccochet}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

scream {also in Tears Ricochet and screamin’ in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

summer {also in Betty and August and Peace}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

 

TEARS RICCOCHET:

BLOOD -bloody {also in Exile and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

BONES [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones“]

BURY ME [End Game from Reputation = “I bury hatchets, but i keep maps of where I put ’em”]

DEAD {also in Madwoman}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” & “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]   

DIAMOND

dying {also in Peace}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

ghostly {also in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom“]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Peace} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}   

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL also in Invisible String and Peace}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Peace}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Peace}   

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Peace} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Peace}

 

 

This is Me Trying:

car {also Betty and August and Cardigan}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

CAGES

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out, cause they got the cages, they got the boxes”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation= “gold cage, hostage to my feelings”]

doorWAY {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “door in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

fears

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep fears that the world would divide us”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “didn’t you calm my fears with the Cheshire cat smile?”]   

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts”]

FILM REEL {also The 1 and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

REGRETS ABOUT THAT [I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I don’t regret it one bit, ’cause he had it coming”]

Why Does Taylor Swift Act That Way?

23 Sep

After doing a lot of Taylor Swift research in general, and Kaylor factoids, I was thing about Taylor’s possible feelings and motivations.  The underlined are topics that came to mind, and I want you to read it bearing in mind things that go on in the Swift-verse (I tried to made up a word for Taylor Swift’s world, and I’m not sure it worked out).  The following is laying the groundwork for what’s happening with Kaylor and why.

 

Being in the closet:

fear of getting caught

fear of other’s people’s reactions

fear of losing important people in your life

fear of career setbacks

fear of being bashed

fear of who you become when you give up being (thought of as) straight

sadness at not fulfilling (heteronormative) expectations

sadness at not having an easy love/life

sadness at missing out

sadness about being the odd man out with friends and society at large

not being sexual at all-as a way to avoid it

being “too busy” for dating/love-so that people stop asking

being ultra-private-to signal others not to ask about it

feeling defensive

feelings of persecution

feelings of being alone, the only one

feelings of not being supported

forcing straight relationships (then feeling detached from them)

dating the opposite sex, but it’s weird/not what you had thought

internal homophobia

using homophobic language–so others won’t suspect

acting more straight

having very close same sex friendships

having confusing feelings regarding friends

being confused about boundaries

talking about the opposite sex to throw others off

staying away from ‘out’ queer people (guilty by association)

planning ahead-to avoid awkward topics, situations, or damning evidence

anger at having to hide

anger that life is harder for LGBT members

anger at a small dating pool

anger at homophobes

anger at people that “tolerate” gays

being hyper-aware of pronouns and manipulating them

language with a double-meaning

using wardrobe, jewelry, color to signal other gays, but stay hidden from everyone else

swearing others to secret

threatening same sex partners not to let on

not acting couply in public

saying your lover is just a friend

coming out to certain, trusted people, but not large groups, or known homophobes

 

Not knowing Taylor Swift personally, but being alive in the world, I think she may experience some of these feelings.  Lyrics, interviews, dates, and persona could maybe relate to a lot or most of these.  You can’t rush a person’s timeline.  Taylor has to come out when she’s ready (or if she is ever ready at all). 

A lot of these are truly founded worries the LGBT individuals have about making known their ‘difference.’  The list above comes about with politics, language, expectations, seeing openly gay people struggle.  This stuff doesn’t just come out of nowhere.  For example, Ellen Degeneres is an ‘it’ gal today sure.  But she lost everything when she came out–and for a long time afterwards. 

Instead of taking that trajectory as  ‘it’ll work out, come out– see how good Ellen is doing?  I think it should be a cautionary tale.  It was scary and even today I would characterize Ellen as a reluctant gay icon.  She came out for personal reasons, so she could live authentically.  I And when that happened she lost everyone.  Except a small group of LGBTQQA.  She didn’t wanna play to only gay crowds.  Didn’t ask to represent a whole population.  She was thrust in that role because of how big a deal her coming out was at the time.  But that other stuff wasn’t a choice she made–she played to exclusively gay crowds because suddenly, no one else would see her.  She was boycotted.  Ellen was cancelled.  People see her current success and forget all of that.  She didn’t even really mention her gayness at all in the beginning of her talk show.  She had to sort of play it straight again to get the status she has attained.  She finagled her way back into the mainstream. 

There are many more examples of people cut down after coming out.  So if Taylor is planning to come out (which I greedily hope she does, b/c it would make me personally very happy) I think she’s right to be cautious and do it carefully.  I would not want to see people throw her away, especially in the world of music where women are treated as a dime a dozen, totally replaceable by the next pretty blonde.

 

Gay-Dar

Because of all the closeted tactics, gays automatically learn to identify “family” and there is a knowing wink and nod, exchanged.  I think to some extent most gay people (and some straight) have honed their gay-dar.  It’s a practiced skill based on signals, non-verbal cues, and some stereotypes.  My feeling is that gays from conservative or churchy backgrounds are especially good at it, because the rural gays have to be more secret and underground.  

Does Taylor Swift’s Easter eggs relate to this?  I think so!

On the pod-cast I was listening to, they asked if Ellen Degeneres know Taylor Swift.  My feeling:  absolutely.  You can sense the two have a rapport.  Think of the episode when Ellen asked Taylor who she’s dating in kind of a knowing and cheeky tone.  And Taylor said, “My publicist told me not to answer that.”  I think Ellen knew what was up.  And whether or not Ellen has been told explicitly, I think she’s clever (and experienced enough) to know the signs when she sees them.

 

bearding

I’m not going to get into this as much, because it’s not really in my personal experience, but bearding is a good way to remain in the closet.  Because if you’re dating the opposite sex you obviously can’t be gay-says the public at large.  

This one speaks for itself.  And is the subject of so many theories in Kaylor.

 

Heteronormative/heterosexist

This is the societal attitude that everyone is straight until proven gay.  And when I say proven, I mean you won’t accept subtle signs, or obvious scenarios–it has to come from that person’s mouth.  The only other way is actually seeing sex.  This mentality is pervasive.  It’s just assumed all little girls dream of their big wedding day with whatever groom chooses them.  Guys are assigned the role of going out and chasing women for sex.  From infants when everyone is so curious about gender, roles are assigned to the sexes, and LGBT has no part in that.  It’s placed on everyone, and if that’s not who you are, it’s your responsibility to ‘come out of the closet’ as not straight.

I feel like 95% of Taylor Swift’s fans believe she’s straight.  They see long hair.  A feminine-looking gal, narratives of dating men.  Even when evidence to the contrary is presented, most fans refuse to believe she might be romantic toward women (too).  And they get angry at Kaylors for “pushing a narrative” when all Kaylors are doing is reading clues that Taylor Swift, herself, has placed.  Kaylors are hunting just like all Swifties, in the way that Taylor has asked and expected us to do.  I think some people, no matter what evidence was presented, would refuse to take stock in that.  Because of heterosexism, homophobia, or ignorance.  A lot of straight people don’t know that they know a gay.  Therefore, they don’t know what characteristics go with that.  Or they might have only experience with the most ‘out’ gays.  Which are only one type of gay.  To be fair, not a bunch of gays have come out, so people don’t realize the LGBT is diverse and there are all types, not just the super-flamboyant and stone-butch that are unable to hide, and are obviously gay.

 

OK, so there I think is a good foundation to see Taylor’s motivations and how it could possibly substantiate the Kaylor theories.