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Lover (2019) by Taylor Swift Song Ranking

21 Feb

27.8% Awesome; 27.8% Good; 27.8% OK; 11.1% Meh; 5.6% Skip out of 18

5 Awesome

I Forgot that You Existed

Lover

The Man

Paper Rings

You Need to Calm Down

The first half of the ERA is so Me! The latter half, with the dark colors and over-sized men’s wear stuff is decidedly NOT my aesthetic. Also, the era felt interrupted and incomplete with the masters, a possible Kaylor break-up, and Covid-19. This album? Overall, my gripe is that it’s over-produced. Too much is going on and it’s as if someone is playing with all the new sounds, trying everything available. I think it would be better if the production was designed around the song. But there’s a lot of catchy hooks here, and lyrics working double-duty.

5 Good

Cruel Summer

Death by a Thousand Cuts

Me (originally a skip, but grew on me & high notes)

Afterglow

Daylight

5 OK

I Think He Knows

Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince

London Boy

False God

Cornelia Street (who’s story is this?)

2 Meh

The Archer

It’s Nice to Have a Friend

1 Skip

Soon You’ll Get Better (nice, but too depressing)

nomads, Indians, and saints (1990) Song Ranking

20 Jan

(45.5% awesome, 54.5% good, OK, meh, skip out of 11 

and an interview and 2 live bonus tracks)

5 AWESOME

hammer and a nail

1,2,3

watershed

hand me downs

pushing the needle too far

This was the first IG album I ever heard, and it really hit me hard. I didn’t know I was gay at the time I heard this, but it impacted me hugely anyway. When I say I didn’t know–I truly had NO inkling. And when I did come out to myself, this album was right there for me, helping me process what was happening. Helping me remember there were bigger things than myself and my sexuality. I love the lyrics, and I appreciate where this album took me.

6 GOOD

welcome me

WORLD FALLS

SOUTHLAND IN THE SPRINGTIME

keeper of my heart

YOU AND ME OF THE 10,000 WARS

girl with the weight of the world in her hands

Indigo Girls

OK/NEUTRAL

MEH

SKIP

…Ready for it? Lyrical Analysis & Bearding Plan

11 Jan

Sidenote:  I apologize for the shitty formatting.  I don’t know who WordPress cators to, but their platform is not user-friendly, not intuitive, and I HATE IT.  But I wouldn’t know how to get these million blog posts moved to a different platform quickly, so I remain…

Reputation was released 2017

I think this is Taylor’s song spelling out her bearding plan, code-phrase:  That’s My Man.

Knew he was a killer first time that I saw him

la·dy·kill·er/ˈlādēˌkilər a charming man who is very attractive to women.

Attractive to women. Doesn’t say this man likes women, or has many affairs with women. The definition specifically says this man is the recipiant of women’s attraction. And he’s charming/polite.


Wonder how many girls he had loved and left haunted

Taylor Swift explained the meaning… “‘Haunted’ is about the moment that you realize the person you’re in love with is drifting and fading fast…captured the intense, chaotic feeling of confusion I was looking for.”


But if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom

  1. phan·tom/ˈfan(t)əm a ghost
    • a figment of the imagination.
    • denoting a financial arrangement or transaction that has been invented for fraudulent purposes but that does not really exist.
      • “he diverted an estimated $1,500,000 into “phantom” bank accounts”

Interesting. Especially that last definition. If Joe is a ghost (he confused many girls), then it allows Taylor to have a financial arrangement for something that does not actually exist (love). Hmmm.

Holdin’ him for ransom

ransom ran-suhm ] noun

the redemption of a prisoner or kidnapped person, of captured goods, etc., for a price.

the sum or price paid or demanded.

a means of deliverance or rescue from punishment for sin, especially the payment of a redemptive fine.

Taylor takes Joe and keeps him for a price. Alternate definition is Taylor rescues Joe from sin for a redemptive fee.

Some, some boys are tryin’ too hard
He don’t try at all, though

Taylor reminds us some of her beards were not believable bc it was too much (Tom Hiddleston in that shirt). But this man doesn’t do anything to arouse suspicion. He’s more lowkey, and all the “privacy” he/they require means he’s a blank slate for the media and public.


Younger than my exes but he act like such a man, so
I see nothing better, I keep him forever
Like a vendetta-taI-I-I see how this is gon’ go

Taylor, who has been criticized for being a man-eater, but who also doesn’t want to ruin her career coming out as LGBT doesn’t see an alternative to keeping this beard around forever. If she has a long-term beard, she can keep her secret, but the media and public might lay off about her dating life.

A vendetta begins when one family correctly or incorrectly believes itself to have been attacked, insulted or wronged by another. Intense feelings of resentment result in the initial retaliation, which leads to the other family feeling equally resentful, angry and vengeful . Ultimately there is a long-running cycle of retaliatory violence. This continual cycle of provocation and retaliation makes it almost impossible to end the vendetta peacefully. Vendettas frequently involve the entire family members, all the relatives and associates, and can last for generations.

NDAS, anyone?

Touch me and you’ll never be alone
I-Island breeze and lights down low

No one has to know In the middle of the night, in my dreams
You should see the things we do, baby
In the middle of the night, in my dreams
I know I’m gonna be with you
So I take my time

The music changes in this part of the song, as does Taylor’s mood. Here, she’s softer, and sings, no one has to know (b/c this is a secret) in her [sexy, apparently, based on the noises] dreams she thinks of “you” someone different than the person in the rest of the song.

Are you ready for it? Me, I was a robber first time that he saw me
Stealing hearts and running off and never saying sorry

This is getting at what I was saying earlier about the man-eater stuff. Robber talks about her stealing something (hearts of boys) that aren’t hers to take. The love of a man is not Taylor’s b/c it’s not real and she’s not actually into these guys she “dated.” Running off and never saying sorry implies that after the “relationships” Taylor left and felt no remorse (bc it’s a business transaction). Short-term bearding contracts were hiding her LGBT truth but also making Taylor look too man-hungry.
But if I’m a thief, then he can join the heist

Cowbody Like Me. Taylor does the bearding contracts, but now she’s saying she found a like-minded beard, who also has the same goals as she does.
And we’ll move to an island-and
And he can be my jailer,

Taylor is trying to put out her own cutesy ship name. But she already “dated” a J, so instead of Joe-Taylor fans went Taylor-Joe, and the result is a very un-cute (in my opinion) Toe.

Burton to this Taylor

I looked Burton up in the most basic of searches and read that there were, indeed, rumors of homosexuality linked to him. He even talked about it himself in an interview:

In a February 1975 interview with his friend David Lewin he said he “tried” homosexuality. He also suggested that perhaps all actors were latent homosexuals, and “we cover it up with drink“.[24] In 2000, Ellis Amburn’s biography of Elizabeth Taylor suggested that Burton had an affair with Laurence Olivier and tried to seduce Eddie Fisher[page needed], although this was strongly denied by Burton’s younger brother Graham Jenkins.[25]

It’s no secret that Liz Taylor had more than a few gay fans, or that she had more than a few gay friends…and possibly husbands.

http://ryan-field.blogspot.com/2012/11/was-richard-burton-gay.html 

Given this information, what an interesting comparison for Taylor to make! She says Joe is like Burton (gay?) to this Taylor (in a lavender marriage?) but the public will see it as a great romance.

Every lover known in comparison is a failure

I forget their names now, I’m so very tame now

All the short-term beards could be easily debunked as fake by the media, general public, and fans. It was a failure b/c these boyfriends did not help Taylor’s public image. But a “private” long-term beard, would make Taylor look more stable (tame), and as a bonus, straight.

Never be the same now, nowI-I-I see how this is gon’ go
Touch me and you’ll never be alone

I-Island breeze and lights down low
No one has to know
(No one has to know) In the middle of the night, in my dreams

It’s important that the “no one has to know” is on the same line as the description of Taylor’s dirty dreams. She is saying no one has to know who she actually dreams about (a female?). These dreams are about someone else/not the subject of the song/not Joe.
You should see the things we do, baby
In the middle of the night in my dreams
I know I’m gonna be with you
So I take my time

This person in Taylor’s dreams, who no one has to know about, b/c it’s not the subject of this song, Joe, is the one she wants to be with. And she takes her time (in both this sex-dream, and also with this long-term bearding plan).
Are you ready for it?
Ooh, are you ready for it? Baby, let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Baby, let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin

If Toe is real and true love, why does Taylor refer to games many times at the end of this song? True love should not have games. Taylor just set out her long-term bearding plan in this song, so she can obscure LGBT rumors, not look like a man-eater with all the shorter boyfriend relationships, but eventually be happy with this 2nd song subject.

I-I-I see how this is gon’ go
Touch me and you’ll never be alone
I-Island breeze and lights down low
No one has to know In the middle of the night, in my dreams
You should see the things we do, baby
In the middle of the night, in my dreams
I know I’m gonna be with you
So I take my time In the middle of the night
Baby, let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Are you ready for it? Baby, let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Are you ready for it?

Evermore Analysis:  Amalgamation 

16 Dec

Amalgamation- is the process of combining or uniting multiple entities into one form.

Similar to folklore, I think Taylor continues obscuring who her songs are about in Evermore.  To keep her writing as an outlet for very private relationships, feelings, and emotions, but protect her privacy (and secret).  It is my assertion that Taylor has weaved several real-life people together in each song.  Like the braid on the cover? 3 stands combine to make a hairstyle-symbols!

So when you say is “Willow” about her boyfriend/beard?  Yes.  Is it about Taylor, herself?  Yes.  Is it about a romantic relationship, perhaps Karlie?  Yes.  Her work situation?  Yes, that too.  It has pieces and characters and symbolism for each of those people/scenarios.  And also media like books and movies and historic figures mixed in.  I think Taylor sews chaos in her songs which makes analysis simultaneously universally relatable and also too complex to untangle.  

When Taylor released Evermore, she said she was going deeper into the forest.  And in the first batch of images was a wedding-looking dress? To me, Taylor saying she is going further into the woods (as opposed to Lover’s coming out into daylight) means she is going to double-down on the bearding, and stay in the closet.  I have a bad feeling the few remaining Kaylors are about to be disappointed.

When I heard folklore, I thought a lot of it was ambiguous.  And I think that was intentionally conveyed, because that’s exactly how Taylor felt.  She knew her Kaylor affair was having problems (and toxic and she was getting codependent), but she ended the album conveying their love was bigger than problems so she was sticking it out. She said, “No other shade of blue would do…She’s going to the lakes, but not without her muse.”

And Karlie did tease a completely secret album 13 days prior to its release.  I see that as them being together, or else Taylor would have sued Karlie’s a$$.  But then maybe after the album dropped Kaylor imploded, so now Tay wants to clarify?  I mean pregnancy and Miami nextdoor to Jarvanka aren’t very good signs…  And instead of a pre-planned tease, this time Karlie did a desperation-pap the day of release to prove she was in NY, not FL.  It tells me she didn’t know about Evermore…


I suspect folklore was confusion, grasping at straws, and ultimately the break-up in progress.  The sister album Evermore is the Kaylor is over for sure, album, but P.S. doesn’t Taylor have a lot of gay and lesbian-adjacent stories and interests?  And I do think there will be a 3rd album in the trilogy.  The merch doesn’t lie–but Taylor has been known to, “Nothing much going on here.”  It will be a brother album (one album for each cat, for each star on the cardigan, for each scrunchy-color)  that will take place at Woodville property at The Lakes, called (my guess) Sycamore!  And I’m afraid it’ll be all about the “boyfriend”…  But I hope I’m wrong.

Taylor Swift’s Evermore as Amalgamation: Tolerate It Analysis

16 Dec

The production is minimal, which lets the listener focus on the lyrics.

Tolerate- accept or endure (someone or something unpleasant or disliked) with forbearance.

[Verse 1]

I sit and watch you reading with your head low

First subject of the song reads.  Maybe it’s her father, b/c we know Taylor is an avid reader.

I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed

The second subject in the song is a more intimate relationship.  Karlie?

I sit and watch you

The third subject of the song is more distant, professional maybe.  Scott Borchetta?  She goes through three lines of description to denote each character addressed in the song.

I notice everything you do or don’t do

Her father was a dreamer, though Taylor never said (as far as I know) if her lyric about “a careless man’s careful daughter” is autobiographical: “My mom thinks of things in terms of reality and my dad always thinks in terms of daydreams… ” He was the one who envisioned (and funded) success: “I never really went there in my mind that all of this was possible. It’s just that my dad always did.” 

So Taylor admired her dad’s dreamy thinking, at least as far as getting her on her trajectory as a star.  Yet, in the Miss Americana doc, her and her father don’t sit next to each other.  He doesn’t seem to treat her with sympathy or talk to her like a daughter, in my opinion and from my own father-daughter experiences.  The relationship portrayed in those couple of scenes (I know, it’s not the whole story) was more like one of client, or even product.  And lines like, “leaving like a father running like water” [“Cardigan” folklore] underline the fact that not all is well between Taylor and her dad.

You’re so much older and wiser, and I

These lines show that these three characters are people Taylor watches and learns from, people she admires.  Authority figures and maybe even inspirations.

[Chorus 1]

I wait by the door like I’m just a kid

“Kid” tells me this verse is speaking to a person around when Taylor was a child.  

Use my best colors for your portrait

These two lines also remind of of “Illicit Affairs” in folklore, suspected to be about Karlie cheating on Jo$h with Taylor.

“And you wanna scream

Don’t call me kid

Don’t call me baby

Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me

You showed me colors you know

I can’t see with anyone else”

Lay the table with the fancy shit

This table could be a family dinner.

And watch you tolerate it

If it’s all in my head, tell me now

Tell me I’ve got it wrong somehow

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

These last four lines in the chorus really speak to the gay experience.  To me, “tolerate” invokes religious figures preaching tolerance of sinful behaviors, “Hate the sin, love the sinner.”  And this sentiment has historically been used in regard to LGBT people when churches interpret the Bible as condemming homosexuality.  It’s bled into the mainstream with people believing tolerance isn’t homophobic (spoiler alert: It is homophobic).  And Taylor sings on her personally-wrenthing TRACK 5 that the hurt of someone who you really look up to not accepting you for who you are is painful. Track 5 is not going to be a made up fairytale/horror story.  This is Taylor’s life.

[Verse 2]

This verse, unlike the other two doesn’t begin with the “kid” line, so we know this could be one of Taylor’s more recent relationships.

I greet you with a battle hero’s welcome

Here’s an actual headline I found:

Karlie Kloss Is a Fashion Week Hero | W Magazine | Women’s …

www.wmagazine.com › karlie-kloss-louis-vuitton-garage

Feb 12, 2016 —

This line also reminds me of folklore’s My Tears Ricochet, largely thought to be about $cott

“I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace

And you’re the hero flying around, saving face”

See  how the lines are doing double-duty and addressing more than one person simultaneously?

I take your indiscretions all in good fun

See my analysis of “Illicit Affairs” about how Karlie Kloss was cheating on Jo$h with Taylor as the other woman.

Talking about Karlie in a song mostly about people Taylor looks up to not accepting her sexuality, still works in the song.  Because Taylor seems to have truly loved Karlie, and really invested in their relationship.  To the point that Taylor was participating in behavior she wasn’t entirely comfortable with (being the other woman).  And overlooking behavior in Karlie that she normally wouldn’t put up with (cheating, chasing fame, being thirsty for money).  Taylor changed herself and her morals, to impress and to keep Karlie, who she looked up to as a true soulmate.

I sit and listеn, I polish plates until they gleam and glistеn

I can see how each surface of a disco ball might be referred to as a plate.  Like, a plate of glass.  Tolerate It speaks to how she had to change and hide pieces of herself to keep others happy, and keep them in her life.  She shines up each of those plates to present.  Which references Mirrorball’s sentiment:  Taylor is perpetually putting on a performance only to be met with indifference, or dismay. 

You’re so much older and wiser and I

[Chorus 1]

I wait by the door like I’m just a kid

Here’s the kid line again to denote this person was around during Taylor’s childhood.

Use my best colors for your portrait

Online there was a photographic portrait of $cott Borchetta.  

This line could also harken back to 

“The rest of the world was black and white, But we were in screaming color.” [Out of the Woods, 1989] 

widely thought to be a song about Swift’s (secret) relationship with Karlie Kloss.

Lay the table with the fancy shit

Maybe the table is some kind of professional table for merch or photo-ops.

And watch you tolerate it

If it’s all in my head, tell me now

The line “’Cause I knew everything when I was young” [Cardigan, folklore] has been decoded!  Taylor knew her sexuality when she was young.

Tell me I’ve got it wrong somehow

Remember all those lines from folklore:  “I’m only 17, I don’t know anything” [Betty] “When you are young, they assume you know nothin’” [Cardigan] “?  Now Taylor gives us more context.  It’s so reminiscent of a young LGBT kid being told that their feelings are probably a phase.  A way to invalidate their (divergent) sexual identity..

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

[Bridge]

While you were out building other worlds, where was I?

$cott Borchetta used money (some of it from the sale the Taylor’s masters) to buy 5 properties on Music Row in TN according to: https://www.digitalmusicnews.com/2019/08/22/scott-borchetta-music-row-properties/

Where’s that man who’d throw blankets over my barbed wire?

$cott softened her rough edges, feminized her.  He didn’t want her secret out.  Taylor’s identity was treated as a shame, a dirty secret. Taylor knew her love wasn’t wrong, but yet Scott still tried to stifle this in her.  Despite the pain, she still tries her best to be what he wants, fit into a princess mold, do what she has to (stay closeted and beard/stunt) to make them both successful. This is her dream and she believes him that this is the right thing to do.

I made you my temple, my mural, my sky

Taylor Swift-commissioned “wings” mural being removed from The Gulch

  • WSMV DIGITAL TEAM
  • POSTED MAY 2, 2019

These lyrics are very representative of Lover-era Karlie.

Now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life

Taylor wants is her masters, her music, her life story. 

Drawing hearts in the byline

Always taking up too much space or time

You assume I’m fine, but what would you do if I

[Chorus 2]

Break free and leave us in ruins

Taylor left her first label on bitter terms.  

Took this dagger in me and removed it

Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it’s morning now It’s brighter now, now [Daylight, Lover]

I read “Daylight” and stepping out into the sun and living authentically by coming out of the closet.  It’s interesting the lyric is referenced near the end of a song about hiding your sexuality at the bequest of someone you look(ed) up to.

Gain the weight of you, then lose it

Believe me, I could do it

$cott betrayed her by selling her masters to the man who she cried to him about = $cooter. Taylor put her everything into both career and $cott’s.. She made Big Machine. But instead of acceptance from $cott, she has to constantly defend herself from his attacks on her character and business ethics.

If it’s all in my head, tell me now

Tell me I’ve got it wrong somehow

I know my love should be celebrated

But you tolerate it

We all look up to someone and want to be like them. We change our behavior to make ourselves more likeable for the person we admire because they mean a lot.  

Taylor has hidden 3 different people, not to mention similarities to Charles and Diana and the unspoken relation this track has to Taylor’s fans.  Will her audience embrace her if she shows her true colors?  Or will the audience read this Track 5 song as somebody else’s story in order to straightwash Taylor for their own palatability?

Taylor pours her entire heart into her family, her romance, her career, and primarily her audience–showing them what they want to see (vs what is actually in front of them).  And it’s very meta, and brings us back to 3-5 possible subjects in 1 song to obscure the truth.

[Outro]

I sit and watch you

Don’t Jump Ship

14 Nov

Kaylor was real. And I think they’re still together.

I have no insider information. I’m not in PR, and I’m not super-engaged in any fandom. I only hear current info after the fact, and I’m not up on the latest liked tweets, gossip columns, or sightings.

But I am a gay gal who just celebrated her 11 year anniversary with her soulmate (yesterday, 11/13 actually). And I also listen and analyze song lyrics. And between those two sources of knowledge, I think Taylor Swift and Karlie Kloss are still together.

Karlie preceded Taylor’s secret album drop with a cardigan, and the exact album imagery–13 days (Taylor’s favorite number?!) prior. Let’s unpack that:

1) How would Karlie even know? No one knew. Even the magazines and people that usually get albums early, in order to write their reviews, were surprised with the album drop like everyone else. Would an ex know?

2) Covid is on the scene. It’s harder, or disallowed, to gather. Getting inside information when you’re not an insider is even more difficult than usual. And Taylor said she wrote folklore in quarantine. So even if she started a bit earlier, how did Karlie know specific details if they weren’t together?

3) Have you heard Taylor’s catalogue? She has never been exactly friendly with past exes. These boys that upset her, even when it was a mutual show-mance, got some bitter lyrics sent their way. Taylor has been known to hold a grudge, and to put shit-heads right in thier place. Even Diana Agron. Everything I know about Diana is through the lens of Taylor’s music, and it’s not exactly positive. So why would Taylor just sit back and let Karlie walk all over her? We’re majorly underestimating Taylor’s self-worth and grit. She is not a doormat! Taylor has the people in her life that she wants to be there.

4) If Karlie spoiled a secret album drop bc of ill-intent, baiting, or hate–don’t you think Taylor’s team would take legal action? Taylor is the queen of NDAs, and has all the money–she’s not afraid to sue. Her team has litigated the smallest copyright infractions. Do you really think Taylor would let an ex spoil the surprise with no consequence?

Everyone is turning Kaylor off primarily because of a People article. We know People is not a reliable source. How many times have they reported that Ellen Degeneres and Portia deRossi are broken up? How many times has Jennifer Aniston been pregnant in that magazine? And we know they’ve reported Taylor Swift’s various engagement and pregnancies–that never came to fruition.

Even if the teams feed them the articles–what evidence is there that Karlie is actually pregnant? She might be, IDK, but let’s not jump to conclusions based on one or two sketchily sourced headlines. Couldn’t it be that the Ku$hners currently have bad publicity, and the team is trying to add a sympathy card? Divert attention? People are less likely to be haters when a baby is involved. Babies would change the narrative, and provide good, sympathetic distraction from an election loss and criminal accusations. I really have no idea about these things. What I do know, is people shouldn’t just jump to conclusions over one magazine announcement. Wait until more facts are garnered. My guess? There’s no baby. But we’ll see what comes to light.

OK, we talked about how the source is incomplete at best, fabricated at worst. Now, let’s discuss the logistics of a pregnancy. I hope you know, gay people don’t just fuck the opposite sex. That’s not a thing, and it’s disgusting for people to admit the Ku$hner has a long-term husband, and that Karlie is bi (more likely lesbian) but still assert they had sex with each other. I’m a gay, and would NEVER mess around with a penis–it’s like the #1 rule of lesbianism. Desire for children or no. And to think a gay man would have intercouse with a woman–Just. No. And why would he do that–it would make his husband, Mike crazy and hurt their relationship (the real relationship).

Yes, I know there are alternate ways to make a baby. But let’s talk careers also. Don’t you think the Ku$hners have been a little busy with the election and all? And Karlie is constantly working, and in the public eye. Are they going to so abruptly change their M.O. and career trajectories to start a family? I mean, it’s possible, but let’s use some critical thinking skills also. I thought they were in a lavender marriage precisely to further their respective careers?

Aside, from not buying into incomplete, sketchy-sourced evidence, and logistic implausibility of a pregnancy, I have personal experience with relationships. Mine is solid. I’m happy, and so is my mate. But I broke up with my mate before and kicked her out of our apartment after 6.5 years together.

Some mean girls we worked with were jealous of my schedule and took it upon themselves to punish me by sabotaging my and my mate’s relationship. And my trusting, somewhat naive mate, fell right under their manipulations. My mate mean-girrled me after 6.5 years together! And we broke up. I was upset–still am. The situation sucked very bad. But you don’t choose your soulmate, Invisible String is absolutely correct. So despite misgivings, I let my mate back into my life. I wouldn’t do that for anybody else. I’m happy to cut off toxic relationships, usually–I’m no doormat. But your soulmate is special. She is my heart, and even though what she did is unforgivable really, I am more happy with her in my life then without. I am not whole without her. So we’re together and she’s sorry that ever happened, and changed her behavior. People grow, and I chose to let us grow together.

Sometimes long term relationships have blips. And having experienced it firsthand, I think many times they can be overcome. And I think Taylor feels the same. I think she considers Karlie her soulmate. And after all the yearning, dreaming, and wanting a fairytale ending–I don’t think Taylor is going to let that slip away easily. She wrote The Lakes to follow Hoax, to show the listener that yeah, all the content of Hoax sucks, and is depressing and toxic–but there’s still that rose that grew out of frozen ground (mentioned in Hoax), and Taylor still wants to take her muse with her. And if you think that muse is some boy–you have ZERO gay-dar!

I think Taylor feels topsy-turnvy more because of internal homophobia than anything shitty Karlie is doing (which let’s not forget Taylor does this hurtful bearding stuff also). Internal homophobia is what drives being closeted, and it leads to depression. Living a secret, closeted life is both high-maintenance and mentally/emotionally taxing. I was closeted (still am in some circles), and it feels BAD. Of course Taylor is sad. Bearding is stressful and phony and horrible to put an S.O. through.

When my mate and I visit my rural hometown, I never touch her, and want us to appear to outsiders (who are bigots) as just friends. And when I say “friend” or “roommate when those small-town people press, I feel ugly and disgusting inside. I feel ashamed with myself for not being stronger. Even so, the fear outweighs all those feelings. Now amplify that by a million for Taylor and Karlie. And they’re both participating in that game of secrecy. it’s a lot of stress.

What I’m saying is–don’t be a weak Kaylor and give up so soon. Taylor and Karlie may have broken up, but the evidence we have is not very great. At least wait for more substantial proof.

This is Me Trying: Analysis of Taylor Swift’s folklore (from larger post)

25 Aug

This is a more digestible portion of my album analysis:

 

Here, I have tried to analyze what and who each track of Folklore is about.  Which is complex because it’s not in a linear order.  Names are obscured.  Facts may be reality or story.  The narrator is unreliable.  And this whole thing is going to be from a Kaylor perspective, because that’s how the songs, and Taylor Swifts catalog as a whole makes the best sense to me.  I’ll show you what I mean.

 

9. This is Me Trying.

Takes place after “The Archer.” In that one it goes, “Combat, I’m ready for combat” like she’s ready for a fight.  This will not be easy.  She continues, “I say I don’t want that, but what if I do?” This speaks of hesitation.  Taylor fears this announcement.  But also, she wants it.  She’s preparing.  The next line is, “Cause cruelty wins in the movies.” And I think that is telling how every gay movie ends badly.  The queers don’t get that happy ending, just sadness and tragedy.  The last line in this verse:  “I’ve got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you.”  And she means the fans.  The public.  Taylor Swift is afraid, but wants to come out.  She had many false starts, but she continues to head in the direction.  Think about the Archer’s line, “Help me hold onto you.” and when Taylor sings this song at concerts and says who could leave me, who could stay, you could stay.” And she points at the crowd on the YOU could stay.  This confirms The Archer is addressing the fans.

In this part B of that song, she sings, “I don’t quite know what to say, but I’m here in your doorway.” Taylor is taking to us, her fans. Proof?  “Pouring my heart out to a stranger.” She speaks of trying to come out, but also keep her career. “They told me all of my cages are mental.” It won’t be as scary as she has always feared.  Taylor just has to get out of her head–out of her own way.  She talks about lashing out in past songs. “And my words shoot to kill when I’m mad, I have a lot of regrets about that.”  She’s saying two things here:  1) In telling these stories about break ups with boys, and in laying down Easter eggs as encouragement to analyze her artwork, Taylor has created a monster.  She did it out of fear and anger, but now fans eagerly comb through her songs looking for the real people they might be about.  So now, that she wants to present the more authentic version of herself, it seems like she was disingenuous before.  Which wasn’t her intention.  She is reminding the fans about how much she cares about what we think about her.  2) I think she wants to come out carefully so as not to hurt or anger anyone else, especially anyone who was previously or who is currently in her personal life.

The 1: Analysis of Taylor Swift’s folklore (from larger post)

15 Aug

This is a more digestible portion of my album analysis:

 

Here, I have tried to analyze what and who each track of Folklore is about.  Which is complex because it’s not in a linear order.  Names are obscured.  Facts may be reality or story.  The narrator is unreliable.  And this whole thing is going to be from a Kaylor perspective, because that’s how the songs, and Taylor Swifts catalog as a whole makes the best sense to me.  I’ll show you what I mean.

 

1. The 1.

Folklore opens with The One which I think is an introduction to what is happening throughout the album.  This song sets the tone for the remaining songs.  Taylor is telling us she is going through memories of all her past relationships and looking at them closely to see what could have been.  Folklore is going to explore what would have happened if Taylor Swift had her dreams come true in every relationship. She sings, “never leavin’ well enough alone” sets it up to show Taylor is still pondering about past relationships and wondering what her life would be like now if they had worked out.  I don’t think this song features any one relationship in particular, but it’s a thought experiment of what if what Swift wanted at the time came true.  “If one thing had been different would everything be different?  Today.”

Features Diana argon movie tag line, about the roaring 20s.  Also they dated when Tay was in her younger 20s. And in this song she sings of digging up the grave, which was in the “Look What You Made Me Do” music video for to symbolize death of a relationship.

Also may feature Joe or other guys-what if Tay had been straight?

Each song profiles different relationships throughout Taylor’s 30 years.  And is a ‘what if’ & thought experiment, which is why it seems like a lot of break up/negative stuff.

Taylor Swift’s folklore Album Cross-Referenced with Lyrics, Songs, Albums, Events

2 Aug

Oh my goodness.  I became obsessed with this project.  I took every key word I heard in the folklore album and cross-referenced common songs.  Example:  The phrase, “chosen family” is in the song, The 1 and also in the song Peace.  And that probably means something.  It lets you know there is at least one connection between those 2 songs.  And that knowledge will help untie the album, which is layered in meaning (see my other post about that).  Then, I heard words in folklore that referenced Taylor’s past work.  So I looked at 1989, Reputation, and Lover albums and tried to find every instance of common lyrics.  For example, the word, “bleed” is in The 1 and Cardigan and Epiphany in this latest album, but it’s also in the lyric, “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know” from the song Cruel Summer on the Lover album.  It became crazy to try to use quotations, and I might italicize later so the format I used was:

 

-Ignore any capitalization issues, they don’t mean anything.  I am working from home and my work is CAPSlock, so many of these things were jotted while I worked.

-Different color for each folklore song

-folklore songs alphabetized for ease of sort & find

-Title of folklore song bolded and underlined

-the bolded word or phrase of interest with a “-” denoting each new one

-wavy (is that what they’re called?) brackets {showing what other song on folklore contains that word/phrase}

-brackets containing song title, followed by album name then an equals sign “=” with the quoted lyric that is connected

-For many words and phrases in folklore, there are multiple song lyrics that apply from other albums, I have put each with a squiggle (?IDK the term?) to denote each

-I attempted to put pictures that apply to the word/phrase/situation at hand, but WordPress is very heavy and unfriendly for that, so excuse formatting.

-ctrl F was my best friend

 

I think this is the sort of project that is never finished.  For timeliness, I am posting as is, with the intention of adding more, clarifying, and amping it up.

 

 

 

The 1

-never bleed you’re never gonna grow {also Cardigan and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

chosen family {also Peace}

-makin it count 

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I counted days, I counted miles”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “number…who’s counting“]

dream {also Betty and Ephiphany}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-“on some new shit” *drugs?

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord, save me, my drug is my baby”]

films never made {also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

runnin {also Illicit Affairs and Cardigan}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

waking up alone [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “flashbacks waking me up”]

 

 

roarin 20s [“In the roaring twenties they rewrote the rules.. “

A new movie poster of The Laureate starring Laura HaddockDianna Agron Kathy Bates Tom Hughes

latest project from Red Rock Entertainment

The true story of Robert Graves]

 

 

 

August:

-twistin’ in bedsheets [Daylight from Lover = “back & forth from NY, sneakin’ in your bed“]

-get in the car {also Betty and Cardigan and This is Me Trying}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]   

LEVIS {also in Cardigan}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

MEMORY [New Years Day from Reputation = “hold on to the memories“]

-cancel my plans [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = paper cut stains from my paper thin plans]

runnin’ like water {also The One and Illicit affairs and Cardigan} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

summer love {also in Betty and Peace and Seven}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

-bottle of wine

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover “My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust”]

~[False God from Lover = “begging for forgiveness, got the wine for you”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “The wine is cold”]

 

 

Betty:

cobblestones {also in Cardigan}

-couldn’t breathe {also in Madwoman and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

doorstep {also “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “side door” in Exile and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

dream {also Epiphany and The 1}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-in front of your stupid friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Cardigan}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]   

-in the garden

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make all the tables turn, rose garden filled with thorns”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate”]

home {also in Exile and Peace and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

party {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

-kiss me on the porch {also in Cardigan}

summer  {also in August and Peace and Seven}   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every day that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

-only 17 idk anything [I Think He Knows from Lover = “it’s like I’m seventeen, nobody understands”]

 

 

CARDIGAN: 

-DOWNTOWN BARS

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

bleedin {also “bleed” in The 1 and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

BLOOD STAINS {also “bloody” in Tears Ricochet and Exile} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

-kiss in cars {also Betty and August and This is Me Trying}   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

COBBLESTONES {also in Betty}

DRUNK {also Mirrorball}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

FRIEND {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Betty}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-HIGH HEELS {also in Mirrorball}

LEVIS {also in August}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

PORCH {also in Betty}

SCARS {also Hoax}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SMOKE   

~[The Archer from Lover = “room filled with smoke” “the room is on fire, invisible smoke“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “breathed in the smoke“]

-UNDER a STREETLIGHT {also in Betty} [Cornelia Street from Lover = “street lights pointed in an arrowhead, leading us home”]

TRAIN [The Archer from Lover = “jump from the train, I ride off alone”]

RUNNIN’ LIKE WATER {also The One and Illicit affairs and August} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

WEEKENDS

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make the bad guys good for a weekend“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “feels like home stay in bed the whole weekend“]

 

WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG, THEY ASSUME YOU KNOW NOTHING {also in Betty}

 

 

 

black lipstick

~[Taylor wore very dark lipstick to the Met]

~[Reputation album cover features Taylor in black lipstick]

 

tattoo kiss [Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

 

 

 

EPHIPHANY:

BLEEDIN‘ {also “bleed” in The One and Cardigan} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

breathe {also in Betty and Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

DOC {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

dream {also Betty and The 1}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

SLEEP {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax}   

~[Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “sometimes I wonder when you sleep“]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “you ask me for a place to sleep“]

 

 

Exile:

bloody {also in Tears Ricochet and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

CROWN

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “they took the crown but it’s alright”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “like you’re an American queen“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “we all got crowns“]

film {also in The One and “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

HOMELAND {also “home’ in Peace and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

-SIDE-DOOR {also “doorstep” in Betty and “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

TOWN

~[Daylight from Lover = “…stormed out of every single room in this town“]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “in this small town“]

~[False God from Lover = “staring out the window like I’m not your favorite town“]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “would’ve fought the whole town for ya”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “I’ll be there if you’re he toast of the town, babe”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he said, ‘let’s get out of this town‘”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “he keeps the picture of you in his office down town“]

 

KNUCKLES BLOODY {Bad Blood music video = Karlie boxes Taylor}

 

STARIN’ HONEY   

 

 

hoax:

-PULLED ME APART

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “X marks the spot, where we fell apart“]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989] = “we were built to fall apart, then fall back together”]

blue {also in Peace and Invisible String}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]   

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ASH FROM FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

died {also in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

DOOR {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “doorway” in This is Me Trying} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

frozen my ground [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “love had been frozen“]

hero {also Tears Ricochet} [The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

Kingdom

~[Call it What You Want from Reputation = “my castle crumbled overnight” and “they took the crown but it’s alright” “all the drama queens taking swings’]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “and we rule the kingdom inside my room”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your kingdom keys”]

-TWISTED KNIFE   

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you think we’d be fine, still got scars on my back from your knife“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “I brought a knife to a gunfight”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “SUMMERS A KNIFE“]

-WHAT’S THE MOVIE FOR -{also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and The 1 and Exile}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

New York

~[Daylight from Lover = Back and forth from New York (sneakin’ in your bed)”]

~[False God from Lover = I’m New York City]

~[Welcome to New York from 1989 = “Welcome to New York“]

sadness

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “oh, it’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “You make me so happy it turns back to sad“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

scars {also Cardigan}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SCREAMIN {also in screamin’ in Seven and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SLEEPLESS NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]   

SUN {also August and sunshine in Peace}

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “sunshine is gone”]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989 = “when the sun came up, I was lookin’ at you” “when the sun came up, you were lookin’ at me”]

 

 

ILLICIT AFFAIRS:

COLORS I CAN’T SEE W/ANYONE ELSE  [OUT OF THE WOODS from Reputation = “In screaming color“]

DIES {also Peace and Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

-eyes down

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “head down“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = hang your head low“]

DRUG

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord save me, my drug is my baby, I’ll be usin‘ for the rest of my life”]

-A MILLION LITTLE TIMES {also million pieces in Mirrorball}

road

~[All You Had to do was Stay from 1989 = “all I know is that you drove us off the road“]

~[False God from Lover = “They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you’re led by blind faith.”]

~[New Romantics from 1989 = “we’re so young but we’re on the road to ruin”]

~[New Years Day from Reputation = “I can tell it’s going to be a long road“]

~[Style from 1989 = “he can’t keep his wild eyes on the road“]

runnin {also The 1 and Cardigan and August}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

SCREAM {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SECRET {also in Peace}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

                                –STARES   

 

 

 

GREEN

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                                 –TEAL

 

 

INVISIBLE STRING

BLUE {also in Peace and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]   

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

cutting me open

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “waiting for you to cut me to the bone”]

[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “death by a thousand cuts“]

[So It Goes from Reputation = “cut me into pieces”]

-dive bar

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

gold   

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “golden like daylight”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

~[End Game from Reputation = “Your body is gold“]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “gold cage, hostage to my feeling”]

HEAVEN {and Tears Richchet}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “unbreakable heaven“]

~[False God from Lover = “I know heaven’s a thing I go there when you touch me, honey…”]

hell {also in Peace and Tears Richchet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

-PURPLE PINK SKY [It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “light pink sky“]

 

 

3 year trip

                                                                                                      -BAD BLOOD   

 

 

 -TEAL    -GREEN   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lakes:

TBA

 

 

The Last Great American Dynesty:

-bitch pack friends (from the city) {also in Betty and Peace and Cardigan and Betty}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-card games W/DOTTIE   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “back when we were card sharks, playing games“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “I wanna be your end game” “I’ve passed days without fun, this end game is the one”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your little games“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “play stupid games, win stupid prizes”]

~[…Ready for it from Reputation = “Let the games begin”]

DOCTOR {also Epiphany} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

madwoman {also in Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

parties {also in Betty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

 

-fill the pool with champagne [This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “jumping to the pool from the balcony”]

WEDDING [Lover from Lover = wedding imagery]

 

 

 

STL= where Karlie Kloss is from

 

 

 

MADWOMAN:

BREATHE {also in Betty and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

fire {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

-breathe flames

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “it’s gonna be forever, or it’s gonna go down in flames“]

~[I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I can feel the flames on my skin”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out”]

~[Style from 1989 = “cound end in burning flames or paradise”]

dead {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]

drive

~[I Think He Knows from Lover “we can follow the sparks, I’ll drive“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I want to drive away with you”]

HUNTING [I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run”]   

kill

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “killing me slow, out the window” “what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more”]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “I dress to kill my time”]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “I though that it would kill me, but it didn’t”]

madwoman {also in The Last Great American Dynasty}

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

WITCHES [I did something bad from Reputation = “they’re burning all the witches, even if you aren’t one”]

 

-YACHT = Karlie Kloss’ 2nd (fake) wedding was on a yacht?    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

mirrorball:

clowns {also in Peace}

drunk {also Cardigan}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

-highest heels {also Cardigan}

million pieces {also million little times in Illicit Affairs}

 

 

PEACE:

DISTRACTING BEEPING BACKGROUND MUSIC—DOES IT SYMBOLIZE SOMETHING?

 

BLUE {also in Invisible String and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ROBBERS TO THE CLOWNS TO THE WEST {also in Mirrorball}

DEVIL IN THE DETAILS   

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes” “he looks so pretty like a devil“]

[dancing w/our hands tied from Reputation = “looked up grinnin like a devil“]

DIE {also Hoax and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

dying {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

fire {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Betty and Cardigan}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

ghostly {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Tears Ricochet} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL {also in Invisible String and Tears Ricochet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Tears Ricochet}

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

secret {also in Illicit Affairs}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Tears Ricochet} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Tears Ricochet}

 

family I chose {also The 1}

 

 

Seven:

folksongs {folklore is album title}

haunted {also in Tears Riccochet}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

scream {also in Tears Ricochet and screamin’ in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

summer {also in Betty and August and Peace}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

 

TEARS RICCOCHET:

BLOOD -bloody {also in Exile and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

BONES [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones“]

BURY ME [End Game from Reputation = “I bury hatchets, but i keep maps of where I put ’em”]

DEAD {also in Madwoman}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” & “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]   

DIAMOND

dying {also in Peace}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

ghostly {also in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom“]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Peace} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}   

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL also in Invisible String and Peace}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Peace}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Peace}   

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Peace} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Peace}

 

 

This is Me Trying:

car {also Betty and August and Cardigan}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

CAGES

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out, cause they got the cages, they got the boxes”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation= “gold cage, hostage to my feelings”]

doorWAY {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “door in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

fears

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep fears that the world would divide us”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “didn’t you calm my fears with the Cheshire cat smile?”]   

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts”]

FILM REEL {also The 1 and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

REGRETS ABOUT THAT [I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I don’t regret it one bit, ’cause he had it coming”]

I think “Brave” is about Taylor Swift

3 Nov

The song was written by Bareilles and Jack Antonoff from the band fun., as the singer was inspired from the struggles that a close friend dealt with in regard to coming out as gay.  in 2011.[4] Antonoff described the song “as a real civil rights anthem at a time when there are no civil rights anthems and there’s a giant need for civil rights anthems.” [1]

Brave Lyrics:

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

According to Bareilles, she wrote “Brave” to a friend who was struggling with coming out as an adult.  She said it was such an intimate story. Also, Bareilles says the song has a connection to Taylor Swift’s frequent producer, Jack Antonoff!  She added in the interview that he is known for all the incredible advocacy work he does in the gay community. [1]

I feel like this group of singers were all in the studio around the same time, touring, and being in festivals together.  I think Colbie Caillat and Sara Barellies have worked together and been in the business simultaneously so they probably know one another.  Jack Antonoff is in the mix, (bisexual) Jason Mraz was around at that time.  Maybe there was a posse’ of LGBT artists in this point in time.  And Taylor Swift was around…  Is there a connection between these artists, and maybe inspiration for songs?  I wanna say at least casually there must have been familiarity if not a group.

Preceding this, Taylor wrote a song believed to be about Emily Poe’s sudden departure from the middle of her tour.

Breathe” is a song by American singer-songwriter Taylor Swift, featuring American singer-songwriter Colbie Caillat. It was written by Swift and Caillat, produced by Nathan Chapman and Swift, it is the seventh track from Swift’s second studio album, Fearless (2008) [4]

Colbie: “It can relate to anyone, anything.”

Taylor: “It does, it’s never specific as to why, that’s my favorite thing about it, it doesn’t talk about why or who’s fault it was because sometimes the hardest time of when you say goodbye it’s nobodies fault. It just has to stop.”

According to Swift, “Breathe” is about having to depart from a someone, however, not blaming anyone.[1] Swift believed the scenario was one of the most difficult goodbyes, “when it’s nobody’s fault. It just has to end.”[2] Swift explained, “It was total therapy because I came in and I was like look, ‘One of my best friends, I’m gonna have to not see anymore and it’s not gonna be part of what I do. It’s the hardest thing to go through. It’s crazy listening to the song because you would think it’s about a relationship and it’s really about losing a friend and having a fallout.”[2] [4]

In 2008, Emily and Taylor performed together for the last time before Tay released her second studio album, Fearless. Emily says she was booted from Swift’s tour without an explanation, but there were rumors it was because Swift’s managers were afraid of their relationship ruining the singer’s fast-growing reputation [3]

Breathe Lyrics:

I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
‘Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time
Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see
‘Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around
And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people,
And sometimes it doesn’t work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to
It’s two am
Feelin’ like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it’s not easy,
Easy for me
It’s two am
Feelin’ like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain’t easy,
Easy for me
And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to
Sorry (oh) sorry
Sorry sorry
Sorry sorry
Years later this happened:

…Speaking of “sisterhood,” you’ve been one of Taylor Swift’s many surprise guests on tour when you two duetted on “Brave” in 2013. [1]

Before she invited Bareilles to the stage taylor said:

“There’s a song that came out a few months ago, and I listened to it every time I had a bad self esteem day — which is a lot,” she continued. “This song is so beautifully written, it’s so original. It’s something I’ve listened to hundreds and thousands of times...” [2]

In the interview, it’s telling how Sara answers the following question:

Regarding “Brave,” you once said in a webisode, “It’s important to be brave because by doing that you also give others permission to do the same.” How do you react, then, to people in the limelight who are hesitant to come out but could potentially inspire so many people if they did?
(Sigh) That’s a really hard thing to speak to. Honestly, I understand both sides of it. Everyone is on their path, and I really believe that, at the end of the day, people are doing the best they can with what they’ve got. Not everyone is comfortable enough to step into a leadership position and you can’t really judge them for that.
I would love to see everyone step into this holy space of carrying the torch of bravery – it’s just not everyone’s role. If you make someone feel bad because they’re not (out), isn’t that similar to punishing them because they’re quote-end quote “different” in the first place? All of that is a form of judgment. I would rather hope that everyone’s doing the best they can and that eventually people feel safe to be exactly who they are. It’s just so hard. You can’t know what’s going on behind the scenes – why someone is as complicated as they are – and I just wouldn’t want to judge someone’s experience. [1]

 

[1] https://pridesource.com/article/73598-2/

[3] https://babe.net/2018/02/15/taylor-swift-is-gay-and-i-have-evidence-for-days-34274

[4] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Breathe_(Taylor_Swift_song)