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Taylor Swift’s Catalogue Ranked by Kit10Phish (final)

14 Mar

I ranked all album songs from least favorite to my very most delightful favorite of all the songs!

How I made this list:

https://kit10phish.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=11721&action=edit

and check out the many (not final) lists for more description

(numbers) are the album/era

(C)atchy, (D)etailed story, (G)aylor references, (I)nstrumentals, (L)yrical complexity, very high/low (N)otes, (P)roduction stands out in a good way, (S)entimental

Skips
Last Place Song:
Superman (3)

Soon You’ll Get Better (7)
(best skip) Epiphany (8)

Mehs
3 boring:
A Perfectly Good Heart (1): I, N
(best boring-meh) The Archer (7): G, L

Mehs
2 Personally Dislike:
The Lakes (8): G, L, N, P
End Game (6): C, G, L, P (terrible feat!)
(best disliked meh) Coney Island (9): G, L, N (terrible feat!)

Mehs
1 Exactly Meh:
It’s Nice to Have a Friend (7); D, G, L (Ambiguity bothers me; weird production)
The Other Side of the Door (2): I, L, N
A Place in This World (1): I, N
Right Where You Left Me (9): C, G, L, N (repetitive)
(best exactly meh) The Outside (1): I, N (weak)

OK3 = nearly meh (final)
OK-3B BOTTOM OF LIST:
Tell Me Why (2): C, I, N = 3b (thin voice & a bit generic lyrically)
Sad, Beautiful, Tragic (4): C = 3B (both blah and bummer)
Superstar (2); D = 3B (zzzzzz)
I Almost Do (4); C = 3 (too needy/pathetic/un-feminist. Yet catchy)
(best OK-bottom of nearly meh) Jump Than Fall (2): C, I = 3B

OK3 = nearly meh (final)
OK-3A = TOP OF LIST:
The Other Side of the Door (2); C, I, L, N = 3A
Innocent (3): C, I, N = 3A
Last Kiss (3): C, D, N = 3A
The Best Day (2): C, D, = 3A
(best nearly meh) Fearless (2); C, I, N = 3a

OK2 = exactly neutral
OK-2B = BOTTOM OF LIST:
Peace (8): C, D, G, L = 2b (hate pulsing; lyrics condescending(?))
Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince (7); C, D, G, L, N = 2b (don’t care for HS/politics mixing & end chant is too much. But lots of good one-liners)
I Wish You Would (5): C, G = 2A
It’s Time to Go (9): C, D, G, L, N = 2B
Illicit Affairs (8); C, D, G, L = 2B
August (8); C, G, L = 2B
(best OK-bottom of exactly neutral) A Place in the World (1): C, I, N = 2B

OK2 = exactly neutral
OK-2A = TOP OF LIST:
The Way I Loved You (2): C, D, I, N = 2A
False God (7): C, G, L = 2A
Breathe (2): C, G(?), L = 2A
Dorthea (9): C, D, G, L, N = 2A
Happiness (9): C, D, L = 2A
Seven (8); C, D, G, L, N = 2a
(best of OK-exactly neutral) Long Live (3): C, D, I, N = 2A

OK1 = almost good
OK-1B= BOTTOM OF LIST:
Mary’s Song (oh my my) (1): C, D, I, N = 1B
This Love (5): C, G, L, N, P = 1b
I Think He Knows (7): C, G, L, P = 1b
(best OK-bottom of almost good) London Boy; C, D, L, P = 1b

OK1 = almost good
OK-1A= TOP OF LIST:
New Romantics (5): C, D, G, L, N, P = 1A
Hey Stephen (2): C, D = C2
Call It What You Want (6); C, G, L, P = 1A
Tied Together w/a Smile (1): C, D, I, N = C2 (less repetition, some more notes & instrumentals
Gorgeous (6): C, D, L, N, P = 1A
King of My Heart (6): C, L, N, P = 1A (ENDING)
Change (2); C, I (@ END!), N = 1A
Back to December-acoustic (3): C, D, I, N, S = 1A
(best OK-almost good) Cornelia Street (7); C, D, G, L, N = 1A

Good c = almost OK
Gc2 = bottom of category:
State of Grace-acoustic (4): C, L = C2
Begin Again (4): D, I, L = C2
The Last Time (4): C, I = C2 (weird collaboration)
(best Good-bottom of almost OK) Cold as You (1): I, N = C2

Good c = almost OK
Gc1 = top of category:
22 (4): C = c1
Untouchable (2): C, I, N = C1
Come in w/the Rain (2): C, I = C1
All Too Well (4): D, I, L, N = C1 (almost a powwow beat; and yup I did rank it this low)
Starlight (4); C, I = C1
(best Good-almost OK) Sparks Fly (3); C, I = C1

Good b= exactly good
Gb2 = bottom of category:
If this was a Movie (3): C, D, I, N = B2
Never Grow Up (3): C, D, I, N = B2 (problematic sentiment)
’tis the damn Season (9): C, D, L, B2
You are in Love (5): C, N = B2
Stay Beautiful (1): C, I, N = B2
Treacherous-demo (4): C, G(!), L = B2
Cardigan (8): C, D, G, L = B2
Red-demo (4): C = B2
The Last Great American Dynasty (8): C, D = B2
How You Get the Girl (5): C, D, G = B2
(best Good-bottom of exactly good) White Horse (2): D, I, N = B2

Good b= exactly good
Gb1 = top of category:
Everything has Changed (4); C, N = B1
Holy Ground (4): C, D, G, L = B1
This is Me Trying (8): C, I, L(!) = B1
Afterglow (7): C, P = B1
Treacherous (4): C, G(!), L =B1
Daylight (7): C, G, L, N = b1
Come Back…Be Here (4): C, N = B1
Mirrorball (8): C, G, L = B1
I’m Only Me When I’m w/You (1): C, I(!) = b1
Forever & Always-piano (2): C, I, N = B1
The Lucky One (4): C, D, N, = B1
(best Good-exactly good) Fifteen (2): C, D, I = B1

Good a= almost awesome
Ga2 = bottom of category:
This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things (6): a2
Welcome to New York (5): C, D, G, N, P = A2
Me! (7): C, G, I, N = A2 (yup, I ranked it this high–it grew on me)
Wildest Dreams (5): C, N, S = A2 (sexy)
Delicate (6): C, D, G, L, P = A2
So It Goes…(6): C, G, P, L, N = A2 (sexy lines)
Mine-pop (3): D, I, N = A2
Clean (5): C, G, L, P = A2
Tim McGraw (1): C, D, G, I, N = A2
Champagne Problems (9): C (bridge), D, G, L = A2a
(best Good-bottom of almost awesome) Betty (8): C, D, I, G, L = A2a (catchy, & swelling instrumentals)

Good a= almost awesome
Ga1 = top of category:
Mine (3): C, D, I, N = A1
Haunted-acoustic (3): C, I, N, P = A1
Getaway Car (6): C, D, G, P = A1
Death by a Thousand Cuts (7): C, D, G, L, = A1b
Gold Rush (9): C, G, L = A1b
tolerate it (9): G, I, L = A1
Cruel Summer (7): C, G, L, N = A1b
Red (4): C, I, L, P = A1
New Year’s Day (6): C, D, I, N =A1
Cowboy Like Me (9): C, D, G, I, L = A1
willow (9): C, G, L, N = A1 (so effing catchy!)
Dress (6): C, G, L = A1 (SEXY)
Haunted (3): C, I (!), N, P = A1a
Teardrops On My Guitar-RADIO (1): C, I, L, N = A1 (sounds almost the same to me)
(best Good-almost awesome) Teardrops On My Guitar-POP (1): C, I, L, N = A1 (more beat & echo)

Awesome- 3 BETTER THAN GOOD:
All You had to do was Stay (5): C, N = 3
Evermore (9): C, L, N = 3
Stay, Stay, Stay (4): C, D, S = 3
Bad Blood (6): C, N = 3
The Moment I Knew (4): D, N = 3
(best Awesome-better than good) Ours (3); C, L, N = 3

Awesome-2 SOLID AWESOME
2b = bottom of list:
You Belong w/Me (2); C, D, I, N, S = 2b
I Forgot that You Existed (7); C = 2b
Girl at Home (4): C, N = 2b
Our Song (1): C, D, I =2b
Paper Rings (7): C, D, G, P = 2b
No Body, No Crime (9): C, D, L (pronoun/subject) = 2a
Closure (9); C, G, L, P = 2b
The 1 (8): C, D, G, L = 2b
Wonderland (5); C, G, L, N, P = 2b
(best Awesome-bottom of solid awesome) Ivy (9); C, G, L = 2b

Awesome-2 SOLID AWESOME
2a = top of list:
my tears ricochet (8): D, L, P = 2a
Mad Women (8): C, L, N = 2a
Out of the Woods (5): D (bridge), G, L = 2a (is this car crash real? who and when? major gay closet vibes)
The Man (7): C, G, L = 2a
Invisible String (8); C, D, L = 2A
You Need to Calm Down (7): C, G, S = 2a (the 3 things being compared aren’t related? enthusiastic!)
Back to December (3): C, D, S(!) = 2a
Blank Space (5): C, G, L, N = 2a
(best of Awesome-solid awesome) I Knew You Were Trouble (4); C, N, P = 2a (subtle-moag)

Awesome-1 ELITE
1b= bottom of list:
Love Story (2-TV): C, D, I, N = 1a (same except staccato reme-o & fa-ding)
Love Story (2): C, D, I, N = 1a (her 1st crowd favorite, but rom-com effect w/princess stuff & severe heteronormativity)
Dear John (3); C, D, L, N = 2a
Enchanted (3): C, D(!), I, N, S = 1b
Better Than Revenge (3): C, D, I(!), N, S = 1B (sounds like Paramore; problematic mean-girl stuff, but it was a time)
Exile (8): C, G, I, L, N = 1b
Dancing with Our Hands Tied (6): C, G, L, N, P = 1b
Marjorie (9); C, G, L, P, S = 1b (I love the sentiment more than the song. Intense memories of my Grandma, thanks Taylor, for that)
(best of awesome- bottom of elite) Long Story Short (9): C, G, L, P = 1b

Awesome-1 ELITE
1a = top of list:
Style (5): C, G, I, L, N, P = 1a (who is she talking about, what car crash is referenced, is it real?)
Lover (7): C, G, L, S = 1a
Shake It Off (5): C, N = 1a (love the sentiment, & catchiest of ever!)
I Did Something Bad (6): C, N, P = 1a (moag is the star here)
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together (4): C, I, P = 1a
Look What You Made Me Do (6): C, P = 1a (exciting like several songs w/in 1 song, I don’t trust nobody bridge)
The Story of Us (3): C, I, S = 1a ( like the next chapter, the end)
Picture to Burn (1): C, I, S = 1a
Shoulda Said No (1): C, I, N, S(!) = 1a
…Ready for It? (6); C, G, N, P = 1a (sexy sounds & moag)
(4th best song) I Know Places (5): C, G, L, N, P = 1a

–and the top 3 songs in the entire catalogue (in my opinion):
*Don’t Blame Me (6): C, G, L, N(!), P = 1a (that moag! She sings her ASS off! Probably the best, barring sentimental favorites)

You’re Not Sorry (2): C, I, N, S(!) = 1a

(My #1 song) Mean (3): C, L, S(!) =1a (after all the listening I learned sentimental really does trump every other characteristic.)

Taylor Swift Album & Song Ranking Procedure (science behind the catalogue ranked last to first)

10 Mar

This is the result of ranking each album by song. What I mean is I ranked each song on the album awesome, good, OK, meh, or skip. The ranking is what I like! It’s not technical, it’s not based on song complexity or singing–just my opinion. But my consistent opinion. I listened and checked each of these lists until my opinion didn’t change, and the songs were locked into their ranking. For the album ranking, I counted up the number of songs in each group. The albums with the highest amount of awesome songs were ranked the highest.                 

awesome       good to ok             meh              skip

1989                      7                     5                           4                    0

speak now            7                      5                           4                    1

red                        5                      13                         0                    0

folklore                  6                      9                            1                   1

Evermore 6 8 0 1

reputation            5                       8                           2                   0

fearless                  5                       8                         4                   1

self-titled               5                       6                           3                    1

lover                       4                       7                           4                   3

P.S. I think the above chart might have changed a little after I ranked each individual song. I’ll have to update it after the catalogue ranking is posted.

Then I took it further. I wanted to rank every song in Taylor’s catalogue (album songs only). I started with the awesome, good, OK, meh, skip playlists from the album ranking, then narrowed those groups into smaller groups.

For example, I took the awesome list and ranked those songs into 3 groups within awesome: Elite, exactly awesome, and almost good.

I did this with all 5 of the original playlists.

At the same time, I marked the song characteristics.

(C)atchy

(D)etailed story

(G)aylor references

(I)nstrumentals

(L)yrical complexity

very high/low (N)otes

(P)roduction stands out in a good way

(S)entimental

Some of the lists were still overwhelmingly large, so I split them in half

like top of the elite-awesomes and bottom of elite-awesomes.

There’s more. Once the lists were manageable, I tried to put the songs in order on each list. This required a lot of listens. I would put the songs on each different group in order, then listen to each different section to make sure the list was accurate. If there was any changes on a section (at least one song moved), I’d mark the list to double-check.

I listened from the bottom to the top, each different group from skip all the way up to awesome, marking any sections with song changes.

If there was a change I would listen to that section again later. I listened over and over until no songs needed to be moved.

Well, I finally finished today! After the holiday music, I started this project so it’s been a long time coming. As soon as I format the lists, I’ll post it up. Hope you enjoy!

Moving to CO Logistics

14 Sep

When I get stressed out, I find myself making lists.  It’s an attempt to remember everything.  And an attempt to get organized and make a plan.  But mostly, it’s a (subconscious) way to gain control over a situation I feel is chaotic.  I’ve moved a lot and that’s one of the most stressful things in life.  Especially if the move is out of state–but always.  So here is an example of lists I made to prepare for a move:

Draft a plan and a budget for the job search and the relocation. Look at your calendar for a reasonable relocation date and set a goal. Give yourself enough time to conduct an extensive search for employment and find a home.

Make a list of EVERYTHING you want to bring with you to your new place

Make a list of everything you’re throwing away/giving away/donating.

—microwave, kegerator, chipped plates, orange coffee mugs, vacuum, TV, noodle strainer, blue cooking fan

-remember to cancel utilities like water, gas, electricity, internet, etc

–It is important to notify insurance providers – for example, if you have any insurance on your cars, home, life, health and etc.

Utility providers should definitely know about your change of address – phone and mobile providers, water and electricity companies, internet providers,

–Go to your post office as well – alternatively you can fill in an online form and send it to them through the internet. You can find the USPS form to complete here.

-print all addresses/phone numbers

-Have some cleaning supplies to clean up your old home after the move.

-Put together a bag pack of personal essentials you will need for the first day in the new home.

–toothpaste, towels, a set of clothes for each member of the family, some snacks and drinks

-Collect receipts for paid bills, contracts, birth certificates, etc. You need all this paperwork in one file for easy access. Keep it safe, always bring it with you during the move 

-Make a list of everything you need to buy before you move.

Make a list of everything you need to buy right after you get to your new town.

Make a list of everything that needs to be done once you’re moved in.

-go to NV and process my storage unit. Have a yard sale, organize and clean the unit.

-Find an apartment

–get temporary place/short lease 1st

—visit potential apt b4 signing a long lease & moving in

–washer/dryer IN unit!

–dbl pane glass

–hopefully 2 bedrm

–clearwire internet

CATS:

-get lysine powder

-get each cat 3 year vax

-get a health cert

-get sedative

-give Capstar during & at moving time

-get Frontline & apply it 2 wk before travel

JOB:

-Create a cover letter template that includes a sentence or two about your relocation plans. For example, you could write, “I’m currently in Little Rock, Arkansas. However, I’m relocating to Washington, D.C. within the next 30 days.” If you don’t want to confine yourself to a specific time or want to ensure you’re available whenever you receive a job offer, add “I’m available for immediate relocation to the Washington, D.C. area.”

-Spend one to two weeks in your desired location, following up on requests for informational interviews. Before your travel, you should have scheduled job interviews by letting HR representatives and hiring managers know your travel dates. If possible, devote most of your time to business — interviewing, sending thank-you notes, touring residential areas.

-later, drive most of my belongings to NV and put in the storage unit.

-have a yard sale in Spokane.

-Take 1 carload from Spokane to CO

-fly to NV, then bring a U-haul from NV to CO.

-fly from CO to Spokane to p/u cats, then back to CO

CARS

-Tune Up Rusty

–oil change

–new all-weather tires

-Registration refunds for the unused portion of your paid Washington registration are available, subject to certain provisions. Complete a Vehicle/Vessel Registration Refundand mail it, along with a copy of your vehicle’s new title or registration from a different state, to:

  • Department of Licensing
  • Revenue Management Unit
  • P.O. Box 9037
  • Olympia, Washington 98507-9037

-Apply for a new driver’s license. After establishing residency most states require that this be done within a set amount of time, usually ranging between 30 and 60 days.

-Apply for a new registration. This too must be completed within a set amount of days after establishing residency.

-Apply for new license plates. This generally coincides with the registration process.

-Notify your insurance company of your move and provide a new address.

-Learn if your new state requires vehicle inspections.

-you do need to take a trip to a local CO driver license office.

http://www.dmv.org/co-colorado/dmv-office-finder.php

-Check out our detailed instructions on driver licenses.

  • Surrender your current out-of-state license.
  • Provide proof of CO residency (utility bill, pay stub).
  • Provide proof of lawful presence in the U.S. (birth certificate, immigration document).
  • Provide your Social Security number.
    • If you do not have one, you’ll need to provide a letter of ineligibility from the SSA.
  • Pay the $21 fee.
    • The DMV accepts cash, personal checks, and money orders.
  • Pass a vision exam.
  • Get your fingerprint and photo taken.
  • Provide your signature.

–Any vehicle purchased in another state and being registered in Colorado must have a VIN verification performed. You can get a VIN verification done at all law enforcement offices, car dealerships, and certain automotive care and repair businesses. There will be fees charged for VIN verifications, and prices vary from place to place.

-Changing your plates is a little more time-consuming in CO and might involve an emissions test if your new abode is situated in an ugly air zone. This is pretty much the entire Denver metro area and a few counties in the mountains.

–The following counties require emissions testing throughout the entire county:

  • Boulder County.
  • Broomfield County.
  • Denver County.
  • Jefferson County.

Counties that only require emissions testing in certain parts of the county are:

  • Adams County.
  • Arapahoe County.
  • Larimer County.
  • Weld County

-Gasoline vehicles model year 1982 and newer: $25.

-Your next stop will take you to a title and registration office to register your vehicle. We provide comprehensive registration and titling information, so you can maneuver through the procedures in no time.

-Obtain the maps to nearby places you will want or need to get to before you may know your way around town very well. Grocery stores, hospitals, libraries, post office, auto repair, schools, your job (lol!), other shopping, Starbucks (lol!), movie theaters, activities. Make a little book and keep it in your glove box

-Some of the common things forgotten when moving are the records of dentists, doctors, vet, etc. Use the opportunity to get advice for specialists in the area where you will be moving to

Taylor Swift’s folklore Album Cross-Referenced with Lyrics, Songs, Albums, Events

2 Aug

Oh my goodness.  I became obsessed with this project.  I took every key word I heard in the folklore album and cross-referenced common songs.  Example:  The phrase, “chosen family” is in the song, The 1 and also in the song Peace.  And that probably means something.  It lets you know there is at least one connection between those 2 songs.  And that knowledge will help untie the album, which is layered in meaning (see my other post about that).  Then, I heard words in folklore that referenced Taylor’s past work.  So I looked at 1989, Reputation, and Lover albums and tried to find every instance of common lyrics.  For example, the word, “bleed” is in The 1 and Cardigan and Epiphany in this latest album, but it’s also in the lyric, “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know” from the song Cruel Summer on the Lover album.  It became crazy to try to use quotations, and I might italicize later so the format I used was:

 

-Ignore any capitalization issues, they don’t mean anything.  I am working from home and my work is CAPSlock, so many of these things were jotted while I worked.

-Different color for each folklore song

-folklore songs alphabetized for ease of sort & find

-Title of folklore song bolded and underlined

-the bolded word or phrase of interest with a “-” denoting each new one

-wavy (is that what they’re called?) brackets {showing what other song on folklore contains that word/phrase}

-brackets containing song title, followed by album name then an equals sign “=” with the quoted lyric that is connected

-For many words and phrases in folklore, there are multiple song lyrics that apply from other albums, I have put each with a squiggle (?IDK the term?) to denote each

-I attempted to put pictures that apply to the word/phrase/situation at hand, but WordPress is very heavy and unfriendly for that, so excuse formatting.

-ctrl F was my best friend

 

I think this is the sort of project that is never finished.  For timeliness, I am posting as is, with the intention of adding more, clarifying, and amping it up.

 

 

 

The 1

-never bleed you’re never gonna grow {also Cardigan and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

chosen family {also Peace}

-makin it count 

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I counted days, I counted miles”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “number…who’s counting“]

dream {also Betty and Ephiphany}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-“on some new shit” *drugs?

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord, save me, my drug is my baby”]

films never made {also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

runnin {also Illicit Affairs and Cardigan}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

waking up alone [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “flashbacks waking me up”]

 

 

roarin 20s [“In the roaring twenties they rewrote the rules.. “

A new movie poster of The Laureate starring Laura HaddockDianna Agron Kathy Bates Tom Hughes

latest project from Red Rock Entertainment

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August:

-twistin’ in bedsheets [Daylight from Lover = “back & forth from NY, sneakin’ in your bed“]

-get in the car {also Betty and Cardigan and This is Me Trying}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]   

LEVIS {also in Cardigan}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

MEMORY [New Years Day from Reputation = “hold on to the memories“]

-cancel my plans [Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = paper cut stains from my paper thin plans]

runnin’ like water {also The One and Illicit affairs and Cardigan} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

summer love {also in Betty and Peace and Seven}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

-bottle of wine

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover “My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust”]

~[False God from Lover = “begging for forgiveness, got the wine for you”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “The wine is cold”]

 

 

Betty:

cobblestones {also in Cardigan}

-couldn’t breathe {also in Madwoman and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

doorstep {also “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “side door” in Exile and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

dream {also Epiphany and The 1}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

-in front of your stupid friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Cardigan}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]   

-in the garden

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make all the tables turn, rose garden filled with thorns”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate”]

home {also in Exile and Peace and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

party {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

-kiss me on the porch {also in Cardigan}

summer  {also in August and Peace and Seven}   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every day that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

-only 17 idk anything [I Think He Knows from Lover = “it’s like I’m seventeen, nobody understands”]

 

 

CARDIGAN: 

-DOWNTOWN BARS

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

bleedin {also “bleed” in The 1 and Epiphany} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

BLOOD STAINS {also “bloody” in Tears Ricochet and Exile} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

-kiss in cars {also Betty and August and This is Me Trying}   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “it’s 2 am in your car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

COBBLESTONES {also in Betty}

DRUNK {also Mirrorball}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

FRIEND {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Peace and Betty}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-HIGH HEELS {also in Mirrorball}

LEVIS {also in August}

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you”]

~[London Boy from Lover = “faded blue jeans“]

PORCH {also in Betty}

SCARS {also Hoax}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SMOKE   

~[The Archer from Lover = “room filled with smoke” “the room is on fire, invisible smoke“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “breathed in the smoke“]

-UNDER a STREETLIGHT {also in Betty} [Cornelia Street from Lover = “street lights pointed in an arrowhead, leading us home”]

TRAIN [The Archer from Lover = “jump from the train, I ride off alone”]

RUNNIN’ LIKE WATER {also The One and Illicit affairs and August} [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I’d hold you as the water rushes in”]

WEEKENDS

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I can make the bad guys good for a weekend“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “feels like home stay in bed the whole weekend“]

 

WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG, THEY ASSUME YOU KNOW NOTHING {also in Betty}

 

 

 

black lipstick

~[Taylor wore very dark lipstick to the Met]

~[Reputation album cover features Taylor in black lipstick]

 

tattoo kiss [Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

 

 

 

EPHIPHANY:

BLEEDIN‘ {also “bleed” in The One and Cardigan} [Cruel Summer from Lover = “and if I bleed you’ll be the last to know”]

breathe {also in Betty and Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

DOC {also in The Last Great American Dynasty} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

dream {also Betty and The 1}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m a nightmare dressed like a day dream“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “my baby’s fit like a day dream“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “fever dream“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = Are you ever dreaming of me?”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “dirty dreams“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “Paper rings and picture frames and all my dreams“]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “in the middle of the night, in my dreams“]

~[Style from 1989 = “you got that James Dean day dream look in your eye”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “red lips & rosy cheeks say you’ll see me again even if it’s just in your wildest dreams…”]

SLEEP {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax}   

~[Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “sometimes I wonder when you sleep“]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “you ask me for a place to sleep“]

 

 

Exile:

bloody {also in Tears Ricochet and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

CROWN

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “they took the crown but it’s alright”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “like you’re an American queen“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “we all got crowns“]

film {also in The One and “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

HOMELAND {also “home’ in Peace and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

-SIDE-DOOR {also “doorstep” in Betty and “doorway” in This is Me Trying and “door” in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

TOWN

~[Daylight from Lover = “…stormed out of every single room in this town“]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “in this small town“]

~[False God from Lover = “staring out the window like I’m not your favorite town“]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “would’ve fought the whole town for ya”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “I’ll be there if you’re he toast of the town, babe”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he said, ‘let’s get out of this town‘”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “he keeps the picture of you in his office down town“]

 

KNUCKLES BLOODY {Bad Blood music video = Karlie boxes Taylor}

 

STARIN’ HONEY   

 

 

hoax:

-PULLED ME APART

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “X marks the spot, where we fell apart“]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989] = “we were built to fall apart, then fall back together”]

blue {also in Peace and Invisible String}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]   

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ASH FROM FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

died {also in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

DOOR {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “doorway” in This is Me Trying} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

frozen my ground [Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “love had been frozen“]

hero {also Tears Ricochet} [The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

Kingdom

~[Call it What You Want from Reputation = “my castle crumbled overnight” and “they took the crown but it’s alright” “all the drama queens taking swings’]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “and we rule the kingdom inside my room”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your kingdom keys”]

-TWISTED KNIFE   

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you think we’d be fine, still got scars on my back from your knife“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “I brought a knife to a gunfight”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “SUMMERS A KNIFE“]

-WHAT’S THE MOVIE FOR -{also “FILM REEL” in This is Me Trying and The 1 and Exile}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

New York

~[Daylight from Lover = Back and forth from New York (sneakin’ in your bed)”]

~[False God from Lover = I’m New York City]

~[Welcome to New York from 1989 = “Welcome to New York“]

sadness

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “oh, it’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “You make me so happy it turns back to sad“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue”]

scars {also Cardigan}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “It’ll leave you breathless, or with a nasty scar“]

~[Lover from Lover = “with every guitar string scar on my hand”]

SCREAMIN {also in screamin’ in Seven and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SLEEPLESS NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]   

SUN {also August and sunshine in Peace}

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “sunshine is gone”]

~[Out of the Woods from 1989 = “when the sun came up, I was lookin’ at you” “when the sun came up, you were lookin’ at me”]

 

 

ILLICIT AFFAIRS:

COLORS I CAN’T SEE W/ANYONE ELSE  [OUT OF THE WOODS from Reputation = “In screaming color“]

DIES {also Peace and Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

-eyes down

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “head down“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = hang your head low“]

DRUG

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover =”Gave up on me like I was a bad drug“]

~[Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “Lord save me, my drug is my baby, I’ll be usin‘ for the rest of my life”]

-A MILLION LITTLE TIMES {also million pieces in Mirrorball}

road

~[All You Had to do was Stay from 1989 = “all I know is that you drove us off the road“]

~[False God from Lover = “They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you’re led by blind faith.”]

~[New Romantics from 1989 = “we’re so young but we’re on the road to ruin”]

~[New Years Day from Reputation = “I can tell it’s going to be a long road“]

~[Style from 1989 = “he can’t keep his wild eyes on the road“]

runnin {also The 1 and Cardigan and August}   

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?”]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “while he was runnin‘ after us, I was screamin’, ‘go, go, go!'”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “if you wanna run and hide then it makes you turn right back around” “this mad mad love makes you come running“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “when you’re young you just run“]

~[The Man from Lover = “I’m so sick of running“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “running through rose thorns”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry”]

SCREAM {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

SECRET {also in Peace}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

                                –STARES   

 

 

 

GREEN

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                                 –TEAL

 

 

INVISIBLE STRING

BLUE {also in Peace and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]   

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

cutting me open

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “waiting for you to cut me to the bone”]

[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “death by a thousand cuts“]

[So It Goes from Reputation = “cut me into pieces”]

-dive bar

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar“]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “dive bar on the East side, where you at?”]

~[So it Goes from Reputation = “met you in a bar“]

gold   

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “golden like daylight”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “made you mark on me, a golden tattoo”]

~[End Game from Reputation = “Your body is gold“]

~[So It Goes from Reputation = “gold cage, hostage to my feeling”]

HEAVEN {and Tears Richchet}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “unbreakable heaven“]

~[False God from Lover = “I know heaven’s a thing I go there when you touch me, honey…”]

hell {also in Peace and Tears Richchet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

-PURPLE PINK SKY [It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover = “light pink sky“]

 

 

3 year trip

                                                                                                      -BAD BLOOD   

 

 

 -TEAL    -GREEN   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lakes:

TBA

 

 

The Last Great American Dynesty:

-bitch pack friends (from the city) {also in Betty and Peace and Cardigan and Betty}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

-card games W/DOTTIE   

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “back when we were card sharks, playing games“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “I wanna be your end game” “I’ve passed days without fun, this end game is the one”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I don’t like your little games“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “play stupid games, win stupid prizes”]

~[…Ready for it from Reputation = “Let the games begin”]

DOCTOR {also Epiphany} [SOON YOU’LL GET BETTER from Lover = “Doctor”]

madwoman {also in Madwoman}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

parties {also in Betty} [New Year’s Day from Reputation = “there’s glitter on the floor after the party“]

 

-fill the pool with champagne [This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “jumping to the pool from the balcony”]

WEDDING [Lover from Lover = wedding imagery]

 

 

 

STL= where Karlie Kloss is from

 

 

 

MADWOMAN:

BREATHE {also in Betty and Epiphany}

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “did you have to hit me, where I’m weak, baby, I couldn’t breathe“]

~[Clean from 1989 = “that’s when I could finally breathe“]

~[Daylight from Lover = “clear in the air, I breathed in the smoke”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…wake up at night and watch you breathe“]

fire {also “fire” in Peace and Tears Ricochet and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

-breathe flames

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “it’s gonna be forever, or it’s gonna go down in flames“]

~[I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I can feel the flames on my skin”]

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out”]

~[Style from 1989 = “cound end in burning flames or paradise”]

dead {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]

drive

~[I Think He Knows from Lover “we can follow the sparks, I’ll drive“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I want to drive away with you”]

HUNTING [I Know Places from 1989 = “they are the hunters, we are the foxes, and we run”]   

kill

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “killing me slow, out the window” “what doesn’t kill me makes me want you more”]

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “I dress to kill my time”]

~[I Forgot that You Existed from Lover = “I though that it would kill me, but it didn’t”]

madwoman {also in The Last Great American Dynasty}

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[The Man from Lover = “it’s okay that you’re mad” “so it’s okay that I’m mad“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you know what used to be mad love”]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I could show you incredible things, magic, madness, heaven, sin”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad“]

~[I Wish You Would from 1989 = “this mad mad love makes you come running”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “and in the end in wonderland we both went mad“]

WITCHES [I did something bad from Reputation = “they’re burning all the witches, even if you aren’t one”]

 

-YACHT = Karlie Kloss’ 2nd (fake) wedding was on a yacht?    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

mirrorball:

clowns {also in Peace}

drunk {also Cardigan}   

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I get drunk on jealousy”]

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “drunk in the back of the car”]

~[Dress from Reputation = “you kiss my face and we’re both drunk“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk”]

-highest heels {also Cardigan}

million pieces {also million little times in Illicit Affairs}

 

 

PEACE:

DISTRACTING BEEPING BACKGROUND MUSIC—DOES IT SYMBOLIZE SOMETHING?

 

BLUE {also in Invisible String and Hoax}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “shape of your body, it’s blue“]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep blue, but you painted me golden”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “oh damn, never seen that color blue“]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “ocean blue eyes looking in mine”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in”]

~[Lover from Lover = “my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue“]

~[Miss Americana from Lover = “we’re so sad, we paint the town blue“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I’m with you even if it makes me blue“]

-ROBBERS TO THE CLOWNS TO THE WEST {also in Mirrorball}

DEVIL IN THE DETAILS   

[Cruel Summer from Lover = “devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes” “he looks so pretty like a devil“]

[dancing w/our hands tied from Reputation = “looked up grinnin like a devil“]

DIE {also Hoax and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “…all of my heroes die all alone”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “when the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst”]

~[False God from Lover = “crazy to think this could work, remember how I said I’d die for you?”]

dying {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

fire {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

friends {also in The Last Great American Dynasty and Betty and Cardigan}   

~[The Archer from Lover = “…my enemies started out friends“]

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I know you heard about me, so hey, let’s be friends“]

~[It’s Nice to Have a Friend from Lover “it’s nice to have a friend“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “I don’t want you like a best friend“]

~[This is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things = “it was so nice being friends again” “friends don’t try to trick you” “I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately” “here’s a toast to my real friends“]

~[London Boy from Lover = “…watching rugby with his school friends“]

~[Lover from Lover = “…let our friends crash in the living room”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this”]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “…high, like your friends were the night that we 1st met”]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “…comin at my friends like a missle”]

ghostly {also in Tears Ricochet}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom”]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Tears Ricochet} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL {also in Invisible String and Tears Ricochet}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Tears Ricochet}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Tears Ricochet}

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

secret {also in Illicit Affairs}

~[“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”]

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “I loved you in secret“]

~[Dress from Reputation = “our secret moments in your crowded room”]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Tears Ricochet} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Tears Ricochet}

 

family I chose {also The 1}

 

 

Seven:

folksongs {folklore is album title}

haunted {also in Tears Riccochet}

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

scream {also in Tears Ricochet and screamin’ in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

summer {also in Betty and August and Peace}

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “it’s a cruel summer“]   

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “snuck in through the garden gate every night that summer just to seal my fate”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “summer’s a knife”]

~[Lover from Lover = “loved you three summers now”]

~[Me from Lover = “Livin in winter, I am your summer“]

 

 

TEARS RICCOCHET:

BLOOD -bloody {also in Exile and cardigan} [Bad Blood from 1989 = “baby now we got bad blood” “if you love like that blood runs cold”]

BONES [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones“]

BURY ME [End Game from Reputation = “I bury hatchets, but i keep maps of where I put ’em”]

DEAD {also in Madwoman}

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “I know places, in the dead of night, your eyes so green”]

~[Look What You Made Me Do from Reputation = “I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time” “back from the dead” & “cause she’s dead“]

~[This Love from 1989 = “this love is alive back from the dead“]   

DIAMOND

dying {also in Peace}

~[Blank Space from 1989 = “I’m dying to see how this one ends”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m not dying, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times”]

FIRE {also “fire” in Peace and and Hoax and Madwoman}

~[Afterglow from Lover = “burned us down”]

~[The Archer from Lover = “the room is fire“]

~[Call It What You Want from Reputation = “he built a fire just to keep me warm”]

ghostly {also in Peace}

~[The Archer from Lover = “pace like a ghost“]

~[Bad Blood from 1989 = “you live like that you live with ghosts“]

~[End Game from Reputation = “we do the most, I’m in the Ghost like a whippin’ a boat”]

~[How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “stand there like a ghost shaking from the rain”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave, you smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “but if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom“]

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts“]

grace {also in Peace} [Don’t Blame Me from Reputation = “and, for you, I would fall from grace“]

haunted {also in Seven}   

~[Death by a Thousand Cuts from Lover = “now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club”]

~[…Ready for It from Reputation = “wondered how many girls he loved and left haunted“]

HELL also in Invisible String and Peace}

~[False God from Lover = “honey hell is when i fight with you”]

~[Wildest Dreams from 1989 = “he’s so tall and handsome as hell“]

HOME {also in Exile and Betty and Peace}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “leading us home” “I took the long way home“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “…I cried like a baby coming home from the bar”]

~[Delicate from Reputation = “do the girls back home touch you like I do?”]

~[Gorgeous from Reputation = “guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats”]

~[I Think He Knows from Lover = “I’ll make myself at home“]

~[Lover from Lover = “take me out and take me home (forever and ever)”]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “I think you should come back home“]

~[New Year’s Day from Reputation = “or if you strike out and you’re crawling home“]

~[Paper Rings from Lover = “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet”]

~[Style from 1989 = “takes me home” “just take me home“]

jewels {also in Peace}   

screamin‘ {also in screamin’ in Seven and Hoax and scream in Peace and Illicit Affairs}

~[The Archer from Lover = “screaming who could ever leave me, darling?”]

~[Clean from 1989 = “the water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing”

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I get mystified by how this city screams your name”]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “scream I love you” “and I screamed for whatever it’s worth, I love you”]

~[This Love from 1989 = “in silent screams, in wildest dreams, I never dreamed of this”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “but there were strangers watching, and whispers turned to talking, and talking turned to screams“]

~[You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “control your urges to scream about all the people you hate”]

-CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT {also in Tears Ricochet and Hoax and Epiphany} [Daylight from Lover = “I’ve been sleepin‘ so long in a 20 year dark night”]

stones {also in Peace} [You Need to Calm Down from Lover = “snakes and stones never broke my bones”]

WAVES {also in Peace}

 

 

This is Me Trying:

car {also Betty and August and Cardigan}

~[Cornelia Street from Lover = “I sit casually in the car“]

~[Cruel Summer from Lover = “I’m drunk in the back of the car“]

~[Getaway Car from Reputation = “nothing good starts in a getaway car” “you were drivin’ the getaway car” “we’re ridin’ in a getaway car” “I was crying in a getaway car” “I was dyin’ in a getaway car” “said goodbye in a getaway car“]

~[King of My Heart from Reputation = “all the boys and their expensive cars“]

CAGES

~[I Know Places from 1989 = “love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out, cause they got the cages, they got the boxes”]

~[So It Goes from Reputation= “gold cage, hostage to my feelings”]

doorWAY {also doorstep in Betty and “side-door” in Exile and “door in Hoax} [How You Get the Girl from 1989 = “she’ll open up the door and say, ‘are you insane?'”]

fears

~[Dancing with Our Hands Tied from Reputation = “deep fears that the world would divide us”]

~[Wonderland from 1989 = “didn’t you calm my fears with the Cheshire cat smile?”]   

~[You Are in Love from 1989 = “and for once you let go, of your fears and your ghosts”]

FILM REEL {also The 1 and Exile and “movie in Hoax}

~[The Archer from Lover = “cruelty wins in the movies“]

~[Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince from Lover = “Lost in a film scene”]

REGRETS ABOUT THAT [I Did Something Bad from Reputation = “I don’t regret it one bit, ’cause he had it coming”]

2016 Goal-Plan

5 Jan

I have to be in a certain mood to really write, and though I want to be–today I’m just not.  Tuesday is my most tired day of the week, so maybe that had everything to do with it.  I’ll try though, because I do see the new year as a perfect time for new beginnings, and per the usual I want to grow as a person and be better.  I’ve catagorized my goals and plan to MAKE plans of actions to attack them.

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BODY

things I’m already doing, or kind of doing

-running.  I’ve certainly been running and it’s a good stabilizing force, and probably the most healthful thing I do.  Though I’m not going to lie–nearly every single day (and this is day 733 in a row) I want to lazy out.  At this point it would take a LOT to make me break the chain, because that many days in a row is spectacular, but it’s pretty hard to get the motivation to put on that sports bra.  I’ll continue on, for who knows how long.  [time-line:  daily]

-water.  I’ve been drinking it daily like I never used to.  I’m trying to get all 12 cups per day (to account for sweating in heat/working out/eating salt/drinking caffeine) and it’s hard.  They key is drinking as much as I can early in the day.   [time-line:  daily, and early in the day]

-flossing.  It seems a constant battle.  Obviously, I want to do it, but it’s just a matter of DOING it, which is often easier said then done.  I think I’ve been pretty successful at doing it before I brush my teeth for work.  In the afternoon, before I’m really tired.   [time-line:  daily, and before I brush my teeth for work]

-Appearance is just one of those things that isn’t SUPER important to me.  I’m a very low-maintenance gal when it comes to grooming and beauty.  But, in the interest of just feeling more motivated for work and looking mature and everything, I’d like to continue wearing makeup on work days (except Sunday, when nobody really sees me and I’m there for 10+ hours).   [time-line:  daily, before work]

things to start

-Going to the dentist!  And this is for sure happening this year.  I’ll get insurance through my work, so just as soon as it kicks in, I’m making the call.  I’ve already research dentists here, and plan on getting the full cleaning, and all x-rays, then setting up a regular 6 month schedule.  What a relief!   [time-line:  call Tuesday, the 12th of January]

-I need to pain my nails more.  It’s an easy thing to do and I have a lot of pretty colors.   [time-line:  Fridays, during the day]

-And I should wear my beautiful jewelry more.  Those are really easy things that add an extra touch of niceness.   [time-line:  Monday, Wednesday, +/- Thursday]

-I’d also like to take more care fixing my hair.  Instead of a pony-tail, maybe a braid or rows, or a nice barrette.  And, as a more expensive, and long-term thing, this year I’d like to start permanently dying my hair.  To cover all those grays cropping up.  I need to schedule a consult to see what the EASIEST color would be so I can just go as far apart as possible and get my roots touched-up after the initial appointment.  Which won’t necessarily be a color I like, but it will get the job done and be cheaper and lower maintenance.   [time-line:  Monday, Thursday to start]

Erin_Hanson_The_Path

MIND

things I’m already doing, or kind of doing

-I am such a different person than I used to be.  I have learned not to make work my life.  I’m not centering everything around it, or letting myself get stressed out over it.  I don’t even check what color tasks I will be responsible for the next week when I’m there on Sundays.   [time-line:  daily]

things to start

-reading more for pleasure.  I want to do the book challenge that specifies different types of books.  The trouble will be finding the time in the week to just sit and read.  I think on a daily basis, between work, tiredness, it’s difficult just to get my run in.  But on my days off and especially on Sundays I think I can make time.  And three days a week of reading is still more then I’m doing now.   [time-line:  Friday, Saturday, Sunday]

-read/outline my undergrad textbooks and notebooks.  This will serve 2 purposes:  1)  it will utilize some of that money I’m paying in school-loans and not make my degree seem quite so pointless.  I feel like I’m paying all this money back, yet I never USED my education for anything.  2)  I might learn the material better without the pressure of multiple classes, regurgitating info for tests, and papers and projects.  I can learn the stuff at my pace and the stuff I find interesting/important.  And a surprise 3rd advantage–I might be able to clean some of it out and get rid of it once I’ve looked at it.   [time-line:  Thursdays during the day?  Try it and see if this day works, then reevaluate]

Erin_Hanson_Crystal_Light

SPIRIT

things I’m already doing, or kind of doing

-be more consistent about adding a weekly item to my positivity jar.  I do it, but not that frequency.   [time-line:  Sunday night]

things to start

-I newed to re-start thinking of all the things I’m thankful for daily.  I really liked it, and it was an easy thing to do, which also had the benefit of re-focusing my attention from worrk to gratitude.  I just sort of fell out of the habit the less stressed and the happier I got.   [time-line:  daily, before sleeping]

-painting for enjoyment.  It’s a nice hobby that Cool and I can do together.  I want to paint light switch covers and finish my totem painting series.   [time-line:  Friday or Saturday, twice a month]

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CLEAN/ORGANIZE

things I’m already doing, or kind of doing

-keep up on apartment cleaning schedule.  This should be OK and easy, because I can’t live with the mess.  Also, I have calender reminders set up in a routine I like.  This will be helpful to keep on everything around home so there need not be any huge cleaning days and at move out we hopefully will not have a Riverton Terrace clean-up/fine situation.   [time-line:  follow calender]

-make a shopping list.  I always do this, but lately it’s been more of a long-term list then is really helpful.  I need to buy the items at least twice a month and start a new list.   [time-line:  as needed]

 

things to start

-scan all my photos and back them up on my external hard-drive to cut down on albums.   [time-line:  tomorrow–get it done ASAP]

-Also consolidate my scrapbooks, and make power-points or DVDs of some of the materials to save space (and future moving hassle).   [time-line:  next Wednesday, January 13th]

-set a consistent grocery shopping day!  Problem is I hate it.  But in order to cook, I need ingredients on hand, so this has to happen.  I think every other Sunday after work will be a less-busy convenient day (relatively) to go.   [time-line:  every other Sunday, starting January 17th]

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SOCIAL

things I’m already doing, or kind of doing

-I have also learned not to place the expectations I have for myself on people at work.  Through experience, I realized that only creates social problems and makes me stressed and resentful.  People aren’t going to have my drive or dedication, and it’s not my problem.  So a huge goal is to keep that up, because I really am bunches happier for it.   [time-line:  continuous]

-make a firm cooking date with Cool.  We love to cook together and it makes the following week a lot smoother.  Friday or Saturday depending on what else is going on will work well.   [time-line:  Saturday, January 9th]

 

things to start

-2015 was AWFUL for blogging!  I didn’t do it, when I did it felt like an obligation, and it wasn’t too technically great of writing either–much like that last sentence.  Partially, it was because 2015 was such a transitional year.  Partially, I was too tired and adjusting to a new work schedule.  And it didn’t happen a lot, because I was happy hanging out with Cool, and didn’t want to “step away” to write by myself.  This year, I aim to be better than that, though I don’t know if I will go so far as to impose deadlines or post-numbers on myself.  After all, it supposed to be fun.   [time-line:  write again Thursday or Friday this week]

Joel K tree

Lots of Little Things

7 Jan

My future is on hold as I wait to hear from my (1) potential school. Again. And I only have 1 because the others just weren’t feasible. Either I couldn’t take my family–mate and cats (Seattle), or we couldn’t afford housing (everywhere), or there were no jobs (Idaho), or the moving expenses were too much because it was farther away (Kansas). So I’ve had to put all my eggs in one basket. Again.

But what do you do? I have to live within my finances and this is it. So I’m waiting, but trying to squeeze so many things into the time.

-Delve into my professional journals

-Prepare, plan, and PAY for the interview

-Get apprised of the general news

-Clean things out, organize, and pack

-organize school supplies and notes

-Read things I haven’t had time to finish (or start as the case may be)

-Cook

When I write it out, the list doesn’t seem overwhelming, but all those things do add up to a lot of time. So I’m trying to do lots of little things every day.  We’ll see how productive I can be.

I felt like I had more to say then this, but I guess that’s really it for now. . .  To flesh out the post, I’ll talk about what I learned about Hearing Aids and The Brain (journal article)

-Children have best results if they are implanted with their cochlear implant no later then their 1st birthday.  Cortical responses can differentiate neural signals initiated by an auditory signal from random noise.  In lay terms, Cortical Responses give information that a signal has proceeded through a device and is being interpreted by an infant’s brain.

-auditory evoked potentials can be used in pediatrics to estimate aided audibility, assess speech discrimination, and

-Hearing aids raise the sound, but also the noise-floor.  Altering signal to noise ratios can interfere w/biological codes that encode stimulus intensity level–which has implications for design of future hearing aids.

-People with hearing loss have to use working memory to understand auditory cues.

more toorrow–this article is MUCH longer than I thought.

A Look Ahead–2015 Goals, Not Resolutions

1 Jan

Last year, having a monthly post with my goals already written out was really helpful.  I liked doing a monthly accountability check–even if it was boring for you to read.

This year, I think I’m going to have less goals, but no less important.

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2014 Maintenance Goals–keep these going!

The key is to be specific, but not box myself in a corner.  And to be mentally prepared to do it, have a plan, and establish a routine.

A]  run at least 1 mile 1st thing in the morning every day.

B]  For school I would like to read and outline all my textbooks before school begins in the fall.  Additionally, I think it’s worth mentioning (to myself) that I want to keep up on making my flash cards and study sheets as close after class as possible–for every class.  All semester.

C]  I want to be better about collecting my positive moments in a jar (minimum of 2/mo), as well as listing (in my head) what I’m thankful for daily.  As part of this, I want to appreciate nature, love, and things I already have.  Worrying can only take up a maximum of 15 minutes/day.  EVERY day.  Also, I need to remember to do my very best, but not stress out and look for perfection.  It’s a fine line.

D]  Dental health.  Floss daily, brush twice daily for an adequate time, and find a way to make the dentist happen at least once in the next year.

2015 Aspirations (in no particular order):

#1:  Get the money.  Make it, keep it.money

a)  I would like to do the 365 day money challenge where you save a dollar +1 every week of the year.

b)  Sell a minimum of 1 item on Craigslist per month and have one yard sale.

c)  Apply for every funding opportunity at UU, and go for scholarships once I’m eligible for them.

#2:  All about the AuD.Audiogram-Familiar-Sounds

a)  read the journals, e-mails, forums–and the national news (minimum of average of 1/wk)

b)  practice and prepare for the interview (at least 1 question/wk)

c)  really follow-up on observing an AuD.  I need at least 3 hours for admission to UU, and of course it’s important that I get more.  It would also be ideal to get it in a variety of settings, but I’ll start with the minimum of 3 hours and scale the goal up from there if I can accomplish it.

#3:  Cool.Spring Finals 001

This is highly dependant on Cool’s bipolar, anxiety, and medications.  I want to be more affectionate, dare I say, sweet and less judgemental.  I will look at this as a continuum though since this is very dynamic area.  I’ll try to be one level more than the responsible that I always am then Cool’s current mood state.   I define this as:  tolerant = overlook silliness, don’t engage or poke the bear.  Affectionate = say random I love yous, introduce touching (nuff said, and you get the idea).  Sweet = make a spontaneous grand gesture, do something for her, that I maybe don’t normally like or do.  So if she’s having a terrible month, being a real jerk, irritable, mean, and lazy–I’ll try to be both responsible AND tolerant.  If we’re having an awesome month without problem, I’ll try to not only be affectionate, but go the extra mile to sweet.  So I’ll rate Cool’s behavior on a level of 1 (awful) to 3 (beautiful) and try to be tolerant, affectionate, sweet in accordance with that.  This way the goal is more in my control and works with whatever is happening to Cool.  Mental illness complicates things, but I want to rise above it.

#4:  Make a menu, do a grocery list, grocery shop, and cook. I think if I start out simple in order to establish a routine, this will go better.Easter 022

a)  I thought of the 7 easiest meals I know how to cook:   quesadillas–>tacos, spaghetti–>fancy pasta, mac & chee–>add-ins, PB&J–>grilled chee, oatmeal–>add-ins, eggs–>scramble, pigs in a blanket–>snake bites.  We can start with the easiest version, then move to the more complex as we get into the groove.  If we really find success, we can branch out with new dishes.

b)  I’d like to start with 5 days of cooking per week (with opening a can of chilli, stew, hash, soup, or bag of salad for a cheat day) and hopefully grow it to all 7.  So that takes care of the menu and helps the cooking.

c)  We can grocery shop once weekly, let’s say optimally Sunday morning, but if that’s not possible Sun-Tues (to save time).  I WANT this one, it’s just hard to make it a habit.

#5:  Prepare, but don’t stress out.Laurel's pics 026

I want to do everything in my power to set myself up for the move, for school, and excelling throughout the school year.  I want to work continuously on this one, doing at least 1 thing every week towards the future.  I’ll start with a big 3:

a)  Starting all these goals

b)  Completing my taxes and FAFSA just as soon as I receive my paperwork.

c)  Finally cleaning, organizing, and packing (pick one new area every non-work day).

d)  Then set a monthly deadline for at least one additional task.

To help me accomplish these 5 new goals and maintain the 4 older ones, I’ll do a monthly accountability post like last year and make a poster I can see daily.

Too Much [to fit in the personal statement]

4 Jun

There are certain things the admissions committee needs to know about me that I won’t have an opportunity to present elsewhere on my application:  Clogging, community service, scholarship awards, clubs, research and sports.  All of it is not going to fit, so I’m trying to tie in things that directly relate to audiology to have strong connections.  It hurts to chop it though.  But I’ve been working most of the day and think I came up with not only a focus, but the organization (very tentatively).  I also have super-way-too much descriptions which I’ll have to majorly cut–but that comes a little later.

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Here’s what I think I’m going to do after reading many personal statements and corrections of those, tips on how to write a good PS, and reworking my info:

 

!my activity [my taits for stated activity]–>how it relates to AuD traits

 

Passion *spark*

!shopping w/Dad  [compassion]–>humanistic; aural rehab; p follow-thru

 

Confirmation

!clogging [dedicated; patient teacher]–>dedication; notice uncertainty

!community service clubs [honest; sensitive]–>diverse; compassion; counsel; flexibility; modification

!hearing screens [enthusiastic; thorough]–>refer; thorough

!tutoring in SHS [pass on love of learning; share motivation]–>teach & apply my own knowledge

 

Qualifications

!vet jobs [detail-oriented; independant; humane; tough; self-driected]–>communication, dx practice, professional, independant

!classes/scholarships [driven; determined; hard-working]–>unstd sci; foundational knowledge, ability to study; aprised of technology; current techniques

!animal science research [critical thinking; meticulous; practical]–>practical; analytical

 

Goals

!lang. transcription research [organized; order]–>effiecient; exposure

!speaker chara (UU emphasis + specific prof/papers) [ethical]–>implications for compliance; p benefit; QoL

!for eventual superior aural rehab in practice [loyal; follow-thru]–> relating back to Dad

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In Livid Color

22 May

The basement at work was a mess!  A fucking mess–yeah, the f-word was warranted.

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I didn’t want to do it.  It was a horrid mess and dangerous and disorganized, and I knew I COULD do a great job with it.  But I also knew it would take time, be dirty, hard work, and everyone would be mad. Because everyone at my work (all vet hospitals everywhere?) hates change, and cleaning would mean moving things.  I also knew, whatever work I did would be immediately undone.  Undone by both people wanting the OLD way back, and by people haphazardly shoving things where they didn’t belong.  So I realized it would be a challenge and any benefits wouldn’t last.

So I left it alone for 3 years.  I wanted nothing to do with that tedious job when all the thanks I would get was anger over change, and then, the same ol’ mess.  But then, my boss was talking about having us clean it to be legit for OSHA.  And really, that’s important.  What if a cat got down there and was poisoned by Monsanto?  What if a co-worker was hurt by a sharp tool while trying to grab food?  It WAS a task that needed doing.

And having to clean it as a group, during work hours, while being interrupted by clients, would be worse then just doing a good job of it during off hours by myself.  So I reluctantly volunteered to get it done before the business day started on Wednesdays when I’m there by myself cleaning anyway.  But I gave the disclaimer that I would have to move things, and I must be able to do it in grubby clothes as well as uninterrupted –over 3 or 4 Wednesdays.

My boss was amicable to those conditions (this was a job that really needed doing and of course nobody wanted to do it) so I jumped in whole-heartedly.  I figured if I was going to do it at all, I was going to do it RIGHT.  And I really did.  I was invested.

Honestly, I couldn’t have had a better attitude about the whole thing.  And I could not have worked harder, or done a better job.  I picked piles of random items off the dusty floor, organized piles of like items, scrutinized shelf-space to see where common items could be grouped together, and did heavy lifting and tedious organizing.  All of the chemicals went into rubbermaid boxes, all sharp objects into a lockable closet.  The basement slowly transformed from a dangerous vortex of chemicals and lost things and unknown garbage, into a safe, functional, visually-appealing storage room.

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The trouble came with the storage of Rx food.  You see, our receptionist tracks it, orders it, and sells a good majority of it.  And SHE is probably the most anti-change person at work.  But my work had the dumbest system in place for years.  The canned food was strewn around the basement, but the dry food was stored in the tiny isolation room upstairs.  Then, orders of dog food were set upon tables in the midst of the basement.  It was a real mess, and totally impractical–but I knew changing it would cause strife because that’s the way everyone was used to it.

But only thinking of functionality, order, and ease for EVERYone at work, I preceded to stack it nicely.  I moved the canned flats from a small shelf, a small side-mounted cupboard,  the bench, and a couple of side shelves to one larger set of shelves, where it could be in one easy to see location.  And this went over well with all staff.  Lovely surprise to me!

But then I had an extra empty shelf.  And I knew it would get cluttered with disorganized crap right away if I didn’t fill it.  So I thought–what can I put there?  And it came to me–it would really be ideal to have all the food in one place.  I’ll move the dry food from the top floor to the basement.  But there was a series of hoops to jump through:  The small shelves were fastened to the wall (2nd vet pried them off for me), the shelf upstairs was heavy (my boss carted it down the stairs with me), the shelf we just struggled to get downstairs wouldn’t fit down the basement stairs (3 people helped disassemble those shelves), those shelves were weird to put together (the book-keeper helped me re-build them), there was a large amount of dry food in stock to carry down 2 flights of stairs (3 of us hauled them over an hour).  Got all that?  So there was nothing easy about moving the dry food to the basement so all the food could be in one place.  AND everyone (except the receptionist) helped accomplish it.  But it would be easy, and worthwhile, and practical so it was all worth it.

I came in early to work on part 3 of the basement project (the side room containing Christmas decorations, I131 leftovers, and large yard items) and to my surprise half of the main room had been disassembled.  Similar items I had so carefully stacked off the floor were tossed to the floor randomly.  I’m sure if it had been any easier of a job, I would have come in to the dry food placed in its former locale.  The food looked much as it had before I touched it–with the addition of all the dry.  On the order of 6 groupings of items were moved out of probably hundreds, but it was an affront none-the-less.  They (the spoiled receptionist) had carelessly un-organized my work.  And I’m sure there had been a hissy fit about the changes I’d made.

They (namely, my boss, who ultimately controls all aspects of the hospital) let her move things back where they were.  Under the pretense there was no room for the new food.  Which I KNOW is B.S., because they also moved food I already found a place for, back to the middle.  I’m sure it was all about being change-averse.

DisasTER

Tears came to my eyes.  They had figuratively punched me in the stomach.  All of my hard work, it felt like, was compromised.  Why continue cleaning and organizing?  They were sure to hate it and ruin it anyway. . .  Then, the more I thought about it–the less sad I was and the madder I became.  WHY would they be so thankless about my working so hard to make all of our lives easier?  More importantly, why was this allowed?  I had to say something.  I had worked too hard to apologize for moving things.  I had gone too far, to let them selfishly destroy it.  This wasn’t right.

When my boss came in, I truthfully told her I almost cried when I saw the basement.  And true to form, she (hating confrontation and wanting everyone to like her) said she had nothing to do with it. And I told her she put me in a bad position then didn’t have the decency to protect me when the going got rough (receptionist temper-tantrum).  Then everyone made excuses that there wasn’t enough room.  Which they just may have believed.  Because vets don’t pay attention to details such as who is doing what work, or how big the food stock is normally.

And now they are buying another shelf.  Because they really think there was not enough room–when I know very well there are 3 empty shelves down there and isn’t it funny the tables are set up exactly as before?  Maybe I’ll learn one of these days not to put myself out there by doing anything extra, because I know where my boss’ allegiance lies–and they are not with me.

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On the plus side when my boss “offered” me to work “some extra hours” translation:  Wanted me to work full-time over the summer for no full-time benefits, I had no problem saying an unequivocal no.  If I hadn’t been through the incident that morning I would have taken on extra hours I don’t want or need, out of pure guilt.  So there’s that. . .

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No April Progress Report

4 May

I don’t want to talk about missing the mark again this last month. Looking at failures over and over can bring a person down and make you want to give up.  So in light of REALLY wanting to achieve the goals I have set for myself this year here is how I can set myself up for success in May, through the summer, and in the long-term:

-I will floss my teeth earlier in the day.  Even if I feel tired, I will at least run the floss quickly through my mouth.  Even if I feel I’m not doing an optimum job.  Because somethimes I don’t because I feel too tired to give my best effort so I think–why bother.  BUT  It’s the repetition that will turn this into a daily must-do.

-I will look up recipes I want to cook, list those ingredients, and go Sunday morning to the Grocery pretty salmon saladOutlet and get the ingredients.   This will keep me excited to eat at home–and it will ultimately be cheaper.

-As a hybrid eat more economically, and do nice things with and for Cool, I will try to have a theme once a month.  This first weekend off of school is camping.  We will sleep in the living room, make microwave s’mores, banana boats, and maybe fondue some brots in cheese.  And shish-ka-bobs!  Those are awesome IMG_2150and festive and I like to look at them and eat them.  Next, is spa weekend retreat (at hotel C-LA-ul) can be a brunch, breakfast for dinner, homemade facial masks, sauna, massage, foot soak, and manicures.  Fun at home.  On the cheap.  And together time.  Festive!

-Cool and I will make a list of outdoor activities, crafting, projects, and pseudo-events (faux-Labor Dave Weekend with DVDs and dancing at home) we want to actively engage in.

-Instead of trying NOT to drink, I will try to drink a variety of things.  This will fill me so full of liquid there will hardly be room for alcohol.  Part two of this is to increase beauty, crafting, and cleaning so there isn’t the TIME to fill either.  I think it will be a lot easier trying to fill my belly and my day rather than trying to avoid food/drink/activities.  What’s left will all be in moderation, and special, and cheaper.

Denver nightscape

-I will do all the volunteering, organization, cleaning, DIY, gifting, moving preparedness, and studying tasks over the summer.  And cleaning and organizing.  And consolidating.  Operation:  Get rid of $hit, down-size, and make for a manageable one-bedroom apartment living and moving scene–commence!

-I will read magazines, and one actual book (for enjoyment) a month.  I can read every night prior to sleeping, and also at lunch (when I’m not getting ahead for school), plus some park-reading.  I will utilize my library card!  Hopefully I’ll read a bunch.  And I will begin blogging more frequently again–and maybe even edit.  Maybe.  Let’s not get carried away.

a cozy cat-I will brush shave the cats when we get a shedding situation and play with the kitties more, as well as put my best effort into the litter-box situation. I have a drawing of the living room and I cut out scaled furniture items and am working on the game-plan.  Sloppy needs a straight shot to her toilet and food that is near her electric throw blanket and protected from the baby–but away from MY electronics, books, and special items.  And kitchen.  And I will pay off their bill and update their vaccines–people that work at vet hospitals are THE worst about keeping up with their pet’s routine things!

-Obviously, I will hit my running goals, get back into the Wii Fit, and try circuits more whole-heartedly now that I have a little time.  I will do a little each day, early in the day, and whether I feel like it or not.

-I will try to get into a schedule that addresses each of these areas daily to establish a healthier, more goal-oriented routine that is easy to maintain once time is short again.  I work best from a routine, so I just need to establish one early on in the summer.