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2022 Progress on Goals (dependent on mood)

3 Jan

It’s funny to see only 15 days below meh, because the year felt BAD. 130 days of 365 (35.6%) were less than good. It’s interesting how our perceptions don’t always match the quantitative data. It makes me wonder what percent my perception changes. I should look at 2021’s moods, because I consider that more good than bad even though I was bullied at work for 11 months. OK, just checked: I had 103 days below good that year. 28.2%. So somewhere between 28 and 36 percent of less than good days is a neutral perception of the year. Weird…

It’s also interesting that it feels like I mostly spend my life working. But it looks like I relax and workout more than I am at work. I suppose the NUMBER of incidents and the HOURS per activity impact this. Sure, I find time to watch TV while I eat dinner nearly every day, but for a brief time. While I’m clocked in 8+ hours. Same with treadmill–yeah, I do it EVERY day of my life, but the longest mile is no more than 15 min (and I probably average 12min/mi).

Things I did well on:

Running and watching TV to relax are the activities I did more than 70% of the days of the year. I also worked out in some manner 84% of the year. It looks like less, because I broke it down into specific types.

Things I need to work on:

30.7% of days in 2022 I did something towards moving.

26% of the days I was tired all day, which probably impacts the next two stats.

26% of days I was anxious–why does it feel like so much more?!

25% of the days I was irritable.

15% of the days I felt stressed out, and I don’t know how that’s so low. Maybe I forgot to log it some days?

Shopping is not really accurate. Amazon has become our grocery store for a lot of food and toiletry items that we NEED. This year I modified 2 categories to track this better: Grocery-NEED and Shopping-Extraneous & fun. Then we can tell how much we’re buying unnecessary things.

An abysmal 5% of the days I talked to my parents on the phone. Partially because of actual packing, driving, and work overtime logistics, partly due to stress making me a tired lump. The time zones are a BIG problem. I am zonked out in the afternoon, and not in the mood to engage, think, be social. So week days are out because their 5PM is our legit bed time. But all of my stuff that I can’t do during work get stacked up on the weekends, so I don’t want to devote a lot of time talking. I think if we shorten the calls, we’ll be able to talk more often. I would also like to start other modes of communication, that are easier, and less time of day dependent.

Dammit! I had just been good at habitually flossing. But it fell apart in 2022. I flossed 59% of the time, which is 36% less than the year before. It just goes to show that you enter survival mode under duress. I want and need 2023 to be more stable so I can work on these things again.

Our water fell by nearly half as well. It’s a lot due to inability to pee just whenever. If you’re home all the time you don’t have to worry about that. If you’re driving or whatever, you can’t just load up on water first. The reduction is also due to the weather difference. Those triple digit temps do motivate you to drink more! Now that things have calmed down, this needs to become a priority again.

15% of the days we had restaurant food. It’s better than our quarantine years (we cut it in HALF), but we need to get this down more.

Reading type of leisure activity fell by 75% because nothing about 2022 was relaxing or calm enough to sit down with a book. But we have so many books I want to read! We’re going to start our creative intervals every day after work again to resume this one. 10 min draw, 10 min read, 10 min write is literally 1% of our day. That’s nothing at all.

writing held its own surprisingly.

I’ll do another post about goals after a few song analysis parts are revealed.

How I Did on 2020 Goals/Resolutions

3 Jan

In 2021, I felt like things should be at baseline again, but they were not.  The pandemic wasn’t over.  Work was kinda fucked up most of the time.  So most of the goals fell apart.  Can I tell you how much I love the Daylio app for being able to track everything and have actual statistics rather than just a general guesstimate of progress?!

-kept up on in-a-row runs

Today, 1/3/22, I have run 8 years and 2 days in a row.

-continued making a weekly menu, grocery list, and sticking to that at the store.  And shopping at Winco.

Our community spread is high and vaccination rate is low so it’s not too safe to go inside of a grocery store.  We got groceries delivered (at great expense) all year.  And because it was such an odd year with so much grocery and restaurant delivery, we really didn’t do the menu either.

-Continued to put on makeup and fix my hair every day for work.  
In a pandemic there’s really no need for this.  For the first time in my adult life, I didn’t even shampoo my hair daily.  And I felt OK about it.  What a colossal waste of time.  I don’t think I’m going to go back to primping on the daily like I used to.  What for?
-Drink 12 cups of water a day.
We did pretty well with this.  It’s hot mostly.  We exercise a lot.  I tend to get headaches if I don’t hydrate enough so that’s a motivator too.
-went to the doctor.
Video appointments!  How do we keep these forever?!  It’s tons less of a hassle than physically going to see a doctor.
-dentist twice a year.
I am freaking out.  I think opening your mouth in an unventilated room for an extended time is one of the riskier things you could do during a pandemic.  And I looked on Yelp for a dentist who takes Covid precautions.  They have a filter for dentists with all their staff vaccinated.  No matches in my state!  Yelp also has a filter to see dentists that require all patients to be fully vaccinated…  None in my state.  IDK if the filters didn’t have the info or if in fact there is none.  But I’m not going to chance it.

-Floss daily.

Since it is not at all optimal to skip the dentist for this long, I have started flossing diligently.  I don’t want to get Covid, but I also don’t want to lose my teeth prematurely.  I think this is actually the worst situation for me in the whole pandemic.  It’s just not good choices…

-workout at least 5 days a week.
Aside from running a mile every day, we also lift weights 6 days a week.  On tired Thursday we get a break to elliptical or bike instead of lifting.  It’s easier to get all of this done in the morning prior to work when we’re not so tired.  For awhile, we were also able to do planks and crunchies on all 3 of our work breaks every week day.  And lately, we walk every day at lunch time, and again after work–just to get some steps in.
-cook at home and meal prep on weekends to make the week easier.
Fail.  Complete fail.  And now we have to get off the restaurants and just try to cook at all again.
-pay off the Visa. 
I submitted double the minimum every month, but there is still money on it.  But it’s a work in progress.  It wasn’t for lack of trying.
-read.
Failed.  I mean, I read articles on my phone, and reddit, and blogs, and twitter.  But books were a fail.  I started off with very technical long book, then slogged through it.  This next year I’m going to try to read multiple books at a time so I don’t get stuck like this.

Ok, so all of that.  And in 2020:

Save money for a car before November.

So we saved enough money for a car, but then it wasn’t super-safe of a proposition to test drive stranger’s cars.  So we’re waiting for the pandemic to wane a bit before taking a risk.  Also, we’re still able to work from home, get prescriptions mailed to the house, and get groceries via delivery, so there’s not as much need for both of us to have a car.

More time for creative endeavors.

Spend 1% of waking hours doing each thing.  We’re setting the interval timer app to do 4 times of 10 minutes.  Each 10 min segment works out to 0.9% of our waking hours.  So even though I get antsy and feel like I need to be doing something “important” it is so much easier to think of it as a small portion of my day.  Makes it more manageable.  I think as we get in the groove, we can add more activities or lengthen time spent, but one thing at a time.  I just want to make a habit of including creativity into every day.  This went well in the beginning of the year, but as the harassment ramped up at my job, I couldn’t concentrate to do other things.  My head space was taken up by ruminations, or me planning what to say/do, or I kept lapsing into anger/sadness about the situation.

So between pandemic and work harassment, my goals were pretty much busted.  Except for the run and workout.  But this next year should be a little better.

Vote Blue No Matter Who

8 Apr

People died to get the right to vote

It is your Civic duty to vote

Your vote is your voice

The personal is political

Not voting, is still a vote

If you don’t vote, you don’t have the right to complain

upset Tommy

Bernie supporters on Twitter are already showing selfishness, entitlement, unrealistic expectations, naivete, etc… by saying they are not going to vote at all, or worse–they’re voting for Trump.

If you’re voting for Trump, you were never progressive.  You were never going to vote based on ethics.  It’s gross.

The whole attitude makes me frustrated.  What could be worse than Trump?  He is doing sometimes irreversible damage.  He has to go.  He cannot get another Supreme Court pick–those are life long terms.  The peddling of lies and disinformation has to stop.  His sewing of distrust of science and media are alarming.  He shouldn’t be allowed to undercut our democracy anymore.  He can’t ruin the environment anymore.  LGBT will lose the little progress that has been eked out.  The racism…  Not voting ensures more of this.

And if you don’t like Biden–neither do I.  Honestly, I didn’t want a rich, old, white man to lead the country–the world, because they do not represent my interests.  They don’t understand who I am as a female or what my needs and desires are as an American citizen.  But politics are effed.  I don’t like the system either, but you have to work within that system or nothing at all will ever change.

Voting is an essential right and duty.  Change happens slowly, our government is designed with checks and balances, so that it intentionally moves slowly.  But it’s important that it moves forward, not backward.

I think we can all agree that after Obama was elected there has been a backlash.  The conservatives, the right, the republicans, the rich, the racists are “over-correcting”  those 8 liberal years.  Which I’d argue weren’t liberal enough in many respects and were actually, fairly unproductive (because of blocks in congress) for the most part.

Which is why we have to get the far right out of the White House while there is still something to salvage.  Please, please vote.  Vote the lessor of two evils.  Vote for the cabinet.  Vote so that we don’t lose anymore of our nation’s values.  Whatever you need to tell yourself to justify it.  Just vote.

Biden is better than Trump.  a silver-alert runaway is better than Trump.  A clown is better than Trump.  My cat would be better than Trump.  My cat’s favorite mouse toy would be better than Trump.  Diarrhea is better than Trump.

opposing parties

Vote Blue No Matter Who.