Maintenance Goals (from 2013):
-floss daily. A-
I was compelled to do this all the time, and feel really icky if I don’t. The only problem arose when we were traveling. It’s pretty hard to fit it in logistically. But it’s not as if we go places constantly, so this should work out. I have organized 2 showers over Labor Dave, so I make sure and floss while I’m using the bathroom. Friday, I’ll probably do it in the morning before we go.
-drink water. A
IF I drink it early in the day, this is easily done. But if I don’t–it’s very difficult. And even though I’m trying to get it in, making the choice between 8 cups and peeing all night is bad-times. In August I’ll try to drink all 4 after I work out while I’m taking my vitamins. That should help.
-read for pleasure. B+
I finished my WA poaching book and have started one on the Comstock and Virginia City–which is very interesting so far. I wish I could have finished more, but I’m doing it every week night that we’re not traveling.
-weekly massage. FFF
It had been NONE. Because the rubs were terrible. And short. So I didn’t even want to bother–especially if I was the only one putting in any effort. We had a massage afternoon, and the quality was better, I’m relieved to say. I guess Cool’s meds made her too much of a zombie to rub, but now it’s nice again. So in August we’ll try to resume at least a weekly basis.
-abstain from drinking. D+ (didn’t, but my head was in the right place)
I don’t want this to sound like I’m making excuses or justifying my actions, because this really wasn’t a “thing.” When we had initially looked at Missoula, it was because of all the breweries in the area. But when we actually visited, we were slightly disappointed, but still had a really good time and weren’t really focused on drinking. Except on Saturday, I saw an amazing pair of Old Gringo boots that looked so stellar on me and that I would kill for! The price tag was $100 cheaper than I’ve seen them anywhere else. Needless to say they were still $300, and that’s too much for an unemployed person. But I wanted them so badly! And really had to make an extreme effort to stop myself from buying them. So I made a deal with myself to share 1, small $5 kraft beer in lieu of spending $300 on a beautiful pair of boots. It was a sort of naughty trade off–but a lot cheaper. And I asked the waitress to substitute the pint of beer on the menu for something smaller, and did share it. My portion was 5 oz. It was good, but not the be-all end all I remembered. And that’s it til at least January 2nd of 2015, and maybe for good, I don’t know.
-study habits. C-
Well, I have been getting things done, yes. I read/outlined all my neuroanatomy for the semester, started drawing the figures (and completed 12?), made and even memorized some flashcards for both classes, made progress on my personal statement, almost finished my CV, and have a draft of my scholarly paper. But I also know I’m not in the right mindset, and I’m able to accomplish even more. I’m torn between buckling down too early and risking burning out, and finishing a lot of things before fall begins. In August I’ll work on getting my application as complete as possible (hopefully finished in its entirety) so I don’t have to stress out about it while trying to keep the 4.0 GPA. I’d at least like everything at the point where I could turn it in if I wanted to, so then I can optionally tinker on it–or have it ready.
Today (the 26th) was my 206th day in a row of running at least a mile. Even with travel this month I managed to get it in. Montana was difficult because a bear was seen walking about, and I had to do it in the hotel room. But when we visited Cool’s mom we easily did it up her residential street. I’m trying to RE-introduce pseudo-hula-hoop back into my routine, because it’s the BEST 6-pack maker and I want to look super-hot for Labor Dave weekend. It’s going–slowly. The closer we get to the event, the more I’m buckling down and doing it like I should.
Feb=have gratitude; say nice things. D
Here’s an example of why this one is difficult: My boss writes to me telling me to take the trash outside after I scoop the litter boxes. Which I hadn’t been because (as other stories have illustrated) the clinic isn’t in the greatest neighborhood in the off-hours. And I’m there between 3-6AM when it’s dark and no one else is around. So I don’t feel super-safe going out behind the clinic to the larger trash bins. Also, it didn’t really occur to me, because the years I worked as an assistant it was a nightly duty to collect all the trash in the building and take it outside–which I did pretty much the entire tenure of my work. So it’s not a really big deal, and I could see why she asked me, but she added, “How is your summer of leisure going?” Not popular. Even if she thinks I’m a lazy-ass. She shouldn’t write it. I’m doing productive things–and my productivity is none of her business anymore. So it’s very hard to say nice things, be positive, and have gratitude when it’s offensive/coarse. Fail, and now that I’m going back to Riverpoint with notoriously crabby professors, I’m going to have to work much harder on this one.
March=straighten out sleep. A-
It’s better, so, so much better! I stopped fighting my natural inclination to wake at 3AM. This has actually worked out better for me, b/c instead of trying to go back to sleep–or lightly sleeping for an hour. I just go to work. Then, I’m back home in the 5AMs when I can still nap. Even though I go to bed at 9PM, I am not super tired or fatigued! Though they must think I’m INSANE when they look at my time clock and it says 3AM to 5AM. Hopefully, my safety never comes into play, as I think this is the one area of the plan that could be troublesome.
April=save $$$. F+ (+ b/c I haven’t lost my motivation/guilt)
I rarely spent money–because there isn’t any I feel comfortable spending. But I didn’t get a job (despite a few interviews) and didn’t offer to miss Labor Dave Weekend SEATS to house-sit, missing out on big, easy money. Which I feel sad missing out on the opportunity, but also feel it’s the right decision. We got those tickets in February, as a reward for not drinking, and 1 ticket was purchased by my parents for an early birthday gift. And we look forward to it all year–but still the timing is unfortunate. And lack of income. August will be worse, because I HAVE to buy some school supplies and a textbook. And of course WILL get a Labor Dave outfit–at least one article, and
probably definitely merch at the show. Hopefully, this next interview comes through so I don’t have to worry about my loan money stretching far enough.
May=volunteer. D+ (I did school-related presentations)
Fail. At least for community. In regards to voluntary school-related activities I did more than any other student in my program. But I did nothing at all even to pursue wider community-type service. And this would be cool. I may have decided it’s not super-important to me right now though. I am undecided, but maybe I’ll focus on finding a job, school, tutoring, school-related presentations, my application, and as an extra–observing an audiologist. It somehow seems like a lot, though I’m unemployed. I’ll re-evaluate once school resumes.
My focus is on more important matters, so fail–but not. Because I’m offering support and responsibility. She’s off the horrible medication, and doesn’t need to go back on unless she swings up or down. So things are much, much better and she has enough energy to act like a person rather than the zombie she had turned into. But then she decided to go off her antidepressant as well, and as a result–she has started showing signs of depression. It’s always something. Which when managing medications/responsibility/crises/medication/responsibility it gets tough to stick to this goal and have any time or energy left to show affection. Hopefully this is not always going to be the case because she’s bipolar. . .
July=my appearance. B+
I have been trying to dress cute and look cute, applied makeup, and even dyed my hair–more on that tomorrow. I still regularly forget to wear jewelry. I’ll really have to step my game up in August for these big, upcoming events.
Aug=Worry Less, Thank more. C-
OK, but I can do better. I totally forgot my positivity jar–which I think is an excellent idea. I’m going to try to remember to notice and write more for it. And I do say things I’m thankful for immediately before going to sleep–but I’m sleeping a lot better these days, so it doesn’t last nearly as long as before. I think I get to 2, maybe 4 things before I’m out. And overall I am so proud of me because I worry substantially less. And it’s really, super nice. If I could keep it this way it would be so awesome!
Sept=make a list, grocery shop, cook ahead. F-
Terrible, absolutely horrible. Failed so bad. My computer app changed it up and made itself a recipe site with no more menu–which was the point. I’m thinking maybe a white board would help me scene. Paper lists are hard because if we get tired, run out of an ingredient, the weather is too hot, etc… it’s a pain to change things. Making it easy as possible to write, then edit the menu as necessary would be best. I’m great at making a grocery list, but need to get on the menu, weekly shopping, and actual preparing of things. Total. Fail. Have you ever seen 2 people that can go a summer without actually cooking? I grab whatever I can stuff in my mouth quickly (wheat thins, dried fruit. . . OK ice cream) and don’t bother. But it’s bad, and HAS to change!
Oct=don’t over-pluck. C
I still want to try the Indian method. I still want to try lightening them. For now I’m unsatisfied, but leaving them alone as much as I can make myself.
Nov=Increase eye contact. F+ (+ for lack of opportunity)
Fail. Now it’s operation look at service people in the eye, because they are really the only ones I see at all.